I was gonna go feel sad right now because I was thinking no one cared, but then I thought about it. I do have some people that do care for me. *why that matters to me, I dunno, I think its a human thing* Anyways, lemme write about what I was thinking about. * no paticular point, just thoughts*

First and foremost, there is Michelle. My longest online friend. *a year and 2 months* I know she cares. I dunno if I care for her more than offline friends, but we are close notheless.

Next person that comes to mind is kaliko. *now that I think of it, may of known her longer, hmmm, anyways* We chat sporadicly, but when we do, we really hit it off. We know alot about each other and stuff. So that's cool

The next few are online friends that I haven't seen or chatted to in awhile but have cared in the past. Jenjea, honey, and ally. All of us have had are long conversations, but seems they have other things in life they have to deal with. There is also shadowrose, but I'm not sure where she'd fit. Moving on.

Offline friends that I think care are Jeff, Alex, Donald, Danielle, and Ray.
Jeff I think cares the most. We still talk on nearly daily basis. Thing is, I have put up this wall on him that will take awhile for me to take down. *after betraying my trust, it'll be awhile before I give him that again* With Alex, he seems to care what is happening with me and stuff, though offers lil on the advice and likes to change the subject. Donald cares for me somewhat, he tends to try and ask how I am and stuff. Thing is, I don't think he knows how. I do think he tries to though.

The final two are Ray and Danielle. Both have stepped up thier friendship and level of care for me lately. Yet, I for some reason don't do much on my part. Ray is different in that his care isn't all mushy and stuff. He uses logic. Danielle is more of a mushy person and tries to make everyone ok. Also, both seem to have thier walls firmly up. I believe both know alot more about me than I know about them. I sorta resent that, but I understand. Out of the two, I care for Ray more simply because time I knew him. 12 years now. *though most of that time was a very superficial friendship that had periods of non-communication between the two of us*

That basically covers all that. Knowing all that helps me. :) I'm glad they are there for me, not sure what I'd be like right now if I didn't go to college and didn't have the internet. *kinda scary thinking of it*

Oh, Update of sorts. Danielle found me place that will get me cheap medical insurance. *or so she hopes* Prices start from $58 and on. I probaly will try to get on that. You know what, I was shocked she even looked for me. I got the message in my email. I called to thank her and she amazingly offered to take me to the movies on a day off, her treat. OMG! I was happy. Though right away I was already thinking of how I will get her back. Its this process in my mind that says I must repay the good done for me. *i'm weird* I know that isn't what she expects, but that is how I just think.

ANYWAYS, I will try to get around to that interesting entry about friends soon. *this ain't it* Would do it right now but i'm tired. That is all. ~END~