Sun Jun 17 2001 - I Hate Father's Day
I Hate Father's Day
Dear Diary,

Yup, today is Father's Day, wopdeedo. I get to remember my dad. Funny, all I remember is his fists hitting me. Oh yeah, there was that one day that he, um, um, HE NEVER DID ANYTHING FOR ME. That prick, glad he's gone. WHo knows what kind of a person I'd be if I was still living with him. To think, all I wanted was his love. I don't even want that anymore, just an apology. Oh, and how does my big brother feel about him, he wants to see him again. WHA? DId I miss something when I was little. We have an idea where he is, we heard he could be locked up in El Myra. A jail in New York. LOL, I shouldn't say this, but I will, my mom's name is Myra. How ironic is that. LOL. I delight to in the idea that he is locked up there of all places. Though I shouldn't.

I always wonder, does he regret what he did. If i ever seen him, would I be able to forgive him? Would he want to kill my mom, for taking us away? I'd like to talk to him somehow one day, but I'd have to be in another state, that way, he'd not be able to trace call. TO fathers day, YAH.

Comments (12)

A dad (Unauthenticated) (Legacy)
You have no respect, child, no respect.
tinoz (Legacy)
This guy must be joking, might delete my first comment
fortune (Legacy)
To "a dad"
You have written this in answer to an entry from a person who was physically abused by someone who should have protected him from the world, someone who should have shown him love an' support.
Tinoz has reason to be upset at his father to dislike, an' even to HATE his father for what he did to him. You know? Not all dad's are amazing, not all dad's are lovin' an' caring.
Thing about it...

An' to tinoz *hugs ya* I'm sorry to hear what you had to go thru with your dad, an' I don't understand why your brother wants to go an' see him either, maybe to ask the question "why?"
Good toy hear you had a great time yesterday at Waterworld :D Maybe next time I should come along with you!
Take care, an' remember what a great person you are :):):)
AnneOakley (Legacy)
Im sorry....

~*A.O*~
Lilith (Legacy)
Wish you could have had a Daddy like mine.

From what I've seen of some so-called father's, I sure don't hold anything against you for the way you feel or the way you expressed it.

Happy tinoz day :)
Promethian (Legacy)
?????

As your a christian, Im really surprised by your comments.... Maybe you ought to rethink your faith.
tinoz (Legacy)
Promethian, Maybe I haven't wrote down enough stuff for you to understand the extent of his terror. He abused me, my mom and my brother. He sold all our stuff. Plus theres more, so much more that I can write a whole page on it. Anyway, I don't like the fact I feel this way about him, I just do. I do pray that I'll be able to forgive him one day. I know the anger part isn't very christian, but I feel what I feel. Besides, I never said I was perfect.
Promethian (Legacy)
Its ok mate...I felt your anger from this side of the screen so I dont doubt you have reason, I just thought that was one of the 10 Christian commandmants...the whole basis for the christian faith?

Im not a Christian by the way...so get to pass on that one you see!!!
kaliko88 (Legacy)
No, Promethian, it's not one of the ten commandments, though it is part of the Lord's Prayer. What forgiveness is... the one single hardest ideal all true Christians strive for. We're supposed to walk like Jesus, do what he did... but forgiveness is the hardest. Jesus was the Son of God in flesh. We are mere humans. Any wonder that it's so hard? But, that is why most of us are Christians, to learn how to be like Jesus.

Tinoz, don't forget, no matter what, you do have one great father to look up to... God the father. :)
Rosebud (Legacy)
((((tinoz))))))

Im sorry you had it so bad. I too have been there in a different way. I think you have every right to feel as you do, christian or not.Jesus felt anger didnt He? Sadness? Hurt?? Pain?? So what you feel is ok Im sure.

Dont let someones comment worry you. Not everyone understands unless they have been there.

Hope tomorrow is a new day.

Rosie
xoxox
Honey (Legacy)
Sorry, I have not been here for you.
As for your father....
You need to ask God to help you to forgive him.
You may never forget, that is ok. But you really need to find it within your heart to forgive him.
This comes with time. I found that after having my own kids an as a parent, I learned to forgive my natural parents of their sins against me.
Not having your father in your life right now, could be the best thing for all of you!
Sometimes it is best to count your blessings for what you do have and not fuss about what you don't have.
God takes care of his own children.

God Bess!
Honey
SecretHugger (Legacy)
`safely gives you a hug if you want one`

Everyone Needs A Hug,
SecretHugger

P.S. You hate Father's Day huh? Try to think of it this way. It's the Father's Day, up in heaven! That's what I do. I know I still don't care to much for my father either, but it makes me feel better knowing that it's Father's day, and not father's day.
 
 
 
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