Tue Nov 13 2001 - Me as the strong one
Me as the strong one
Dear Diary,

Today started with me being waken up by my mom. She was VERY anxious to get this over with. SO I pop up and put water on my face and get ready to leave. As I'm doing it, my mom starts to thank me and stuff. Even says,"Maybe I should just do my time" I'm like no, I've already decided I'm gonna keep you out. So we call cab to go to back. We get there, I get money out of account. *was not the best feeling* We ride with that much money to warrant bureau. We eventually get there, present money, find we have to get money orders for it. GO to post office, get some, go back, My mom is all clear.

When we got out, she had given me the biggest hug. Said thank you, explained how relieved she is to not have to be going to jail. So she invites me to eat. I get a hot dog, soda and some chips. SO does she. After which, we go our ways. I head to the college, even though I am too late to attend class.

I arrive to find alot of the group was there today. I sit for a minute then find Jeff gots class and wants me and Avina to go to pizza place. So we head there when We see Donald. He joins us. *is good, felt ockward just me and Avina* WE talk about crying and stuff. Seems we've all been down, even donald. *he's actually cryed there too, so has everyone in group* We eat there, Avina talks about how she hates how her lil bro gets all attention in family. *he is the smart one* I tell her not to worry much about that and stuff. We go back on campus and go wait for Jeff in reopened cafeteria. *was closed for a while* Jeff eventually comes. We all talk then Donald leaves. After lots of talking, Jeff talks to Avina, then comes for me. We go walk to his bus stop.

While walking, he tells me alot of stuff. He is having lots of doubts about alot of things. I basically listen whole time while he talks, I do give some advice. He then says he wants me to call Avina see what's wrong with her. *appreantly he feels she is sad about something, she hasn't said to him* I tell him that unless she gives me number or something, I won't call. Would be ockward. He understands. If he sets it up, I will talk to her about it. Whatever I can do to help them I will do. They both need each other, and they are a great couple.

Also, last night I was also being the support for one of my online friends. *she knows who she is* I"m glad I've been strong enough now to help. Good timing, had I been asked to be strong a week ago, I don't think I could've. Now I think I'm coming out of this depression just in time. :) Especially for JEff, I think he is starting to need my support.

Comments (4)

ShadowRose (Legacy)
It's great you can be there for your friends. I hope you all can help each other. People who are close and spend a lot of time together tend to share mood cycles, etc. Hope things start looking up for all of you soon.
IBite (Legacy)
guess what?
my internet is back!
muahaha!
bookworm (Legacy)
Cool, you felt so great helping out your mum. ;-)
hidingbehindmyself (Legacy)
Found a quote to share with oyu in realtion to our last chat oh so long ago...

"If people are good only because they fear punishment, and hope for reward, then we are a sorry lot indeed."
-- Albert Einstein
 
 
 
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