Its early, but decided to do an entry about today anyways. Well, started with big bro calling. Woke up and asked what he needed. *he never calls unless he needs me to do something* He says he needs me to lend him money till tomorrow. I'm like WHAT?! He's like, "I am getting a big screen tv and have pulled out all the money i can out my account for today" I ask him why he's getting one, he says cause he wants to. So then we kinda get into it cause I'm like, how you have that money? He says," I've been saving up and stuff" HMMMMMMM. I believe him simply cause all the money he has from working, yet only gives a lil towards rent. I tell him that I will lend him money till tomorrow, but I have to have it back, its for my books. *It isn't like i have a real choice in lending the money* He says if he don't get it back to me by tomorrow, he'll give me his dvd player. *HE HAS A DVD PLAYER?!* I get off phone.

First, i was mad, mad that he has saved enough money by holding out on us that he can afford that. After that, I got sad. Its like, I'll probaly not have that for a long time. Also, sad that he is so selfish that instead of helping the family, he only looks out for himself. Then the jealously kicks in. Deep within me, I want that. I want a big screen tv, dvd player and my own fridge. *heck, any fridge will do since the family one STILL isn't working*

Grrrr, wish he didn't call me. This has ruined my day. I came off at my mom a lil. Also feel irritated that all lil bro and sis' friends are here. *6 in all* Anyways, I got to go, this is a risky entry, too many people up. BYE.