By Michelle:
Some day I grow up and I want to be..................And suddenly, your eye blinks and you don't know where you are, never plan that to happen. Some people never though when they grow up, they are going to be a super star. People like kelly clarkson for a example. She probably thought about and have her doubt, but who hasn't have those kind of feeling. Yet, she make it. Although I will never have that, but let me tell you what I have. I have someone who love me very much. I have some kind of status to achieve, maybe not as glorifying as Kelly Clarkson. Status where it give me respect. When I walk and you hear the click of my shoes. You see someone that hold up her head high because she strong enough to overcome the obstacle in her life yet she hold her tears back inside and she keeps walking, a phenomeno women you see.

I want to be, I want to be without hesitation.I want to be psychiatrist. They said are you sure? They look at me strangely. They're holding their laughters back. An asian girl think she can solve other people's problem. Can she even speak English, looking at my foreign name? Then there is me. I said to myself it is ok in whatever they think of me. I understand and have full empathy who felt into the state of unconciousness of reality and in the sate of the most vunerable time. The pain that I can see and touch with the hand of my palm. The pain that I can feel inside my heart. The loneliness they feel, and how I want them not to feel. And much more. I can see they are beautiful, and maybe that is something they can't see. That is something I want them to see that they are beautiful in every way.

You can see a lot about someone if you watch their behavior. I wanted to live my life like a fairytale, which girls doesn't. I ran away from home and have a prince to save me, hold me, and love me.Silly girl they said, but they don't know. They don't know that I am dying inside. Although if you make my life as a movie, it doesn't look like that. I am not white and blond and my prince is not the America blondy or America typical guy because he is unique. Someone I adore and love. Even if our picture is not perfect, but it is perfect for me.I finally find my way home. And someone is home this time.

I make my mistakes but I will never make them twice. And I carry that with me. Although they are pain, yet they help me carry on. I know what I want, and I am not afraid of going after it. Commitment is never a question. I have much dedication in my life.

This is just some thoughts I had this morning.

Fav Quotes from -Lisa Lopes-

"I'm not here to change what people think of me. I'm here to change what people think of themselves"

"Nobody's perfect. Name one person who is perfect in an imperfect world? Situations are bound to happen. It's how you deal with them that really matters."
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