Well, was a bittersweet day. Had to leave the people I was used to. Leave the presence of christians and the cool refreshing brezze of the trees. Though I was glad. I wanted to get back so me and Lihn could hang out or something. So anyways, We pack up and leave.

While driving, I talk to Adam about my view of God and life. Was a good conversation. I then nap. While on that nap, I had this communication with God. Coudln't be anything else. Was CRAZY. Is like, I was aware of everything around me and asleep. Started just to tell him that I wanted to do his will but I don't feel it in my heart cause I enjoy the world. Then, its like he said, NO YOU DON"T. DOn't lie to me. Was shocked. I didn't feel like I was lieing till I was like called on it. I was like, well, atleast it leads to happiness on Earth. He was like, Does it? Look at the people who go for that short term happiness. Are they happy? Even if they are, it is just temporary for their destruction will come soon enough.

At that point I"m thinking, is this God or am I just really psychotic. Then its like God was saying, Your doubting me, why? You don't wanna believe? I'm like, I do but maybe there isn't a such thing as a you. Maybe your just a mind trip. He's like, you've already determined you believe there is a GOD, and it is me. Listen to yourself, its not even you. Its the enemy. I'm like, The devil? YEAH! I"m like, well, ok, maybe. THen I start having this overwhelming feeling in my stomach. LIke I was doubting this was REALLY going on. Then it was like God was like, HEY, Don'T listen to that. SO i ignorned it. I then was like, well, following you is hard. I want easy life.

God is like, so, life is easy without me? Is it? You haven't been with me much in you life, has your life been easy? What about others? LIfe is hard regardless. That is the nature of this world. Thanks to Satan. I'm like, but I want to be HAPPY, your life is so BLAH! It will lead you to happiness, trust me, I'm the only one that can get you there and keep you there. I'm like, but!! NO BUTTS!

I then wakeup. I like knew exactly where we were right before I opened eyes, though I hadn't been on that freeway before. Was quite odd. TOld adam about it. He thought it was cool. He took me to this place to look at, then he took me home.

Here at home, I called Lihn, helped her on WOrld War 1 thingy and got her some music. Talked to Brian too. Chatted with ELiza and Danielle. They are doing ok. I go over Lihn's to drop off this floopy of pictures to her. *she needed them* I then come home and chat.

I'm here now, a bit better. though I am strangly feeling like I wanna be sad. I think i like feeling cause I'm safe. I know what to expect. Can't get worse than sad. RIGHT?@! I dunno. I'm crazy. And tired. ~END~