Now that the hoopla is over, time to move on with my life. Well, now its tomorrow. *early, but still* In retrospect, I couldn't have asked for a birthday b-day surprise then what I got here at dd. Wow. Then amount of comments overwhelmed me. Glad it went down like that. It balanced out the what would become an otherwise terrible day. The show of support also made me believe that I can truly depend on internet people to come thorugh in what I would call a time of need. Even after my day got ruined, buggie and honey chatted with me and made me feel better. *thanks* If not for you people, I'd be on my bed right now as I type. I would be depressed for the next 2 days atleast. NOw, I can look back at the birthday and call it a success. I got the party I wanted. I had the amount of people I wanted to care about me to care. *and more* Thanks once again, you people actually changed the shape of my upcoming days. A feat I thought not possible through the internet.

On to other things. Well, I decided which clubs I want to join in the college. Oh, and got my schedule. Ok, first the clubs. The first club which sounded cool was the Game club. Yup, I like to play games. Sounds like I'd fit right in. Next, Studies in the New Testement. I figure hey, this is gonna be a place I find nice people and maybe a closer relationship with you know who. Last club is called the Rise Club. It says here, To assist students in raising and maintaining higher GPA's, gain confidence and disciipline, to build leadership, and participating and volunteering in school and community service. SOunds like things I'd like to do. In high school I would've thoght of these clubs as geeky. But ya know what, they're not, and it's a great way to meet people with common interests. Plus, I'll have more of a life.

My schedule. Econ, History, Psycology, and sociology. Yup, I love brainy classes. Lots of learning about people. Something I want to do. Once I know about people, I can help people. *I hope* As for English and math, that'll be next semester. Classes were full. Oh, can't wait to start. Life is gonna be so different. No more being here with my drunk mom or my mean big brother. No more sitting here watching my lil bro and sis play while I reminise. *remember old times* No more oh so boring hot summer days with no hope for fun. Who knows, I may move. Alright, I'm so happy agian, I'm moving on with my life and gonna fulfill things. Never thought it possible. Not with the life I've been through. Always seen failures. *was scared I would become one* NOw I know I won't be. Wow, how confidence changes someone. Now time to go beddy boo. :) So tired. Up 16 plus hours. An emotional 16 hours may I add. But I'm ok now. Well sorta. *still a lil resentfull at family* But I want to move on. Grudges are so ugly. I hate grudges. *eyes closing* END