Mon Jul 29 2002 - What the...................????????????
What the...................????????????
Dear Diary,

Ok, I woke up all happy anticipating email and people to chat to. So I open up outlook express and lo and behold, I got email. I see from Eliza, so I go open that one first. I'm opening it and the subject is Good bye. I look at the email and read the following: "I'm sarry for ever bothering you I don't care anymore about you so thats why I'm saing good bye to you so have a nice life..... So after that, i'm feeling, WHAT THE F***?!! I'm not sure what I even did wrong. This is what I wrote her before that. "Nope, none of the questions were lies. First off, you were not my first girlfriend. The reason, in my eyes we never were boyfriend and girlfriend. We just dated. I don't consider girls I just dated girlfriends. Further more, the first girl I dated with Alexandrea M*******. *went to Alice B****, than later to San Br**** and JFK* So the reason I consider it a trick question is because I dated girls, but never had a steady girlfriend. Saying never had one would only be half true. *see?* As for my life long dream, that has always been it. You probaly don't know because you never asked me. While I want to be a psychologist, that isn't my dream, my dream is to travel the world and if I could, save people. *the noblier side of me* Anyways, I hope that explains that to you. Sorry you felt cheated, but thing is, there is alot I don't really talk about unless I known a person for over a year. *see the people at the top of the list, there is a reason they are there*

So right now, she is really trippin in my eyes. I'm not even sure where I went wrong in that email. I think maybe she's going through stress or something. I'm not quite sure. I know I didn't do anything. If someone understands why the heck she is mad, please, leave me a comment because right now, I am very bewildered. I sent her the following email just now. " Hold up now, just cause I explained myself about the quiz doesn't mean your bothering me. And I don't even know where the I don't care for you and have a nice life came in. I'm lost. What did I do? I don't know how you thought I meant the email but it was just to clear up the quiz, not break up our friendship. Anyways, you take care and we're gonna have to talk. That is all, take care and I hope life is going good for ya.

Much love,
Tino

Well, that is all right now, I may just call her right now because I am kinda shocked and angry and sad. I didn't know the quiz would make her get like that just cause she messed up and only got 3 of 10. Ok, that is all. ~END~

Comments (9)

Joanne78 (Unauthenticated) (Legacy)
Well not knowing the entire situation, but if someone said they wouldn't open up to me until they knew me for a whole year, I would be irritated. Maybe she thought you had a stronger level of trust and better connection. It is hard to trust people, but to actually but a time limit on it is kind of silly. You could know someone for 50 years and never really know him or her. She also may have stronger feelings for you then you have for her. If this is the case her feelings are hurt. It is hard to like someone and they not return the feelings. Hopefully my thoughts have not offended you, remember opinions are like assholes...everyone has them.
niels (Unauthenticated) (Legacy)
i agree. She may have thought to be a good friend and now you tell her you dont trust people that you dont know over a year? I would be very pissed and hurt myself too. Probably wouldnt talk to you anymore either. Like time has something to do with it, much more about experiences and emotional bonding.

Niels
kaliko88 (Legacy)
Either that or despite your probably making very clear that you generally don't trust people (I know you usually tell friends that) she thought she could change all that. People hate to be wrong about friends. Sounds like she wants that trust.

Plus, she's a RL friend, and the ones who scored the highest are OL friends. That's gotta smack her ego some. Heck, my ego took a hit. I thought I knew you better since I have known you for about a year and I only got a 5!

Or she could just be one of those people who takes things to the extreme. You know, drama queen. Now that is a wild guess, but it wouldn't be the first time I was right with a guess.

>^..^<
kaliko88 (Legacy)
Who says you can't do those things? No matter the stereotypes, Christians do not fit a specific mold. (And quite frankly some of those who try to imitate the assumed mold are giving the rest of us a bad name.)

Quit trying to be what you think a Christian should be with the goal being to get Christian friends who like you. Start finding out what being a Christian means to you with the goal of liking who you are. I guarantee you'll surprise yourself.

>^..^<

P.S. Making Christian friends does not mean you leave your old friends behind.
50lbpuppy (Legacy)
You could try talking to me. . . *shrugs* I consider myself Christian, and my favorite band is Nine Inch Nails. The music you listen to doesn't determine your religion. How you live your life does. Bottom line, though, is that Jesus Christ is my Savior, not Trent Reznor, and He is the one who will always be there for me. Even though at times I may feel like Trent is all I need, I know that's wrong. I commit a plethora of various sins through my thinking and my actions, everyday. This doesn't make me un-Christian. This is what makes me Christian. The fact that I acknowledge that I am flawed and am lost without God. I'm not the best Christian in the world, but I do consider myself to be truer to the religion than most because I am so honest with my conflicts and thoughts.
Anyways. What's my point. . . I know I had a point. . . oh yeah. Don't forget that Christians are sinners, and especially don't forget what the word Christian means. Not someone who listens to Creed and goes to church every Sunday and Wednesday and never utters an unkind word about anybody. It's what's on the inside, hon.
cheliluin (Legacy)
Well, maybe she's PMSing... or just really sensitive? you could probably fix it, just let he think for a bit.
kaliko88 (Legacy)
I have a quote for you, thanks to DD's quote box, that fits, I think. (Not exact probaby - I'm going from memory, and I don't remember who said it.)

"Sometimes what keeps us on the right road is a rut."

And I have another longer quote for you from C.S. Lewis, about this subject of Christian boredom and sameness. But it's way too long, so I will post it specially in my diary. Take a look sometime.

>^..^<
kaliko88 (Legacy)
In response to your comment, you realize by telling me to STOP giggling that I can't? *giggles even more and is starting to fall over*

>^..^<
bythesea (Legacy)
Hey Tinoz:
re: the Christian = Boring. I had a similar post yesterday or the day before about "People Treat You Different?" about some of my struggles with being Christian and being me, and other people's ideas of what I'm supposed to be. I like what someone else posted about Jesus... he hung out with the Tax Collectors and questionable women, nobody's perfect. Also, the greatest commandment is to love God, and then to love our neighbors, it doesn't say we can't have fun. Heck, Jesus created wine at a wedding so people could continue celebrating...I think He knew how to have some fun. Also, if we were made in God's image, then God must also have a sense of humor and a sense of fun... or else where would we have gotten it from?
Peace, ~~bythesea
 
 
 
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