Dear Diary,
I feel great today. Not just physically, but spiritually. Airing out all these pent up feelings and thoughts has made me feel much better. Geez, I'm glad I didn't keep this diary private like I was. The comments left on my diary have really helped me deal with this stuff. WHile the burden is off my heart, for now, I still have stress. WHo doesn't huh. One of those things that I still stress about are my little brother and sister. They feel the stress here, and my mom don't help. Since she's a stupid alcholic, she always is acting grochy, and doesn't take them nowhere. Thus, I end up taking them to the store, or the movies or you name it. The one thing my mom does do however, is cook. Which is great because if they depended on my cooking, they'd commit suicide. LOL. Anyways, I come go on to other things because thinking about the stress in my house causes me stress.

Tomorrow, if things go well, me and friends are gonna actally try to hang out like old times. If that is even possible. Wasn't that great, but they seem to remember being great. I've changed so much since my high school days. And that was just 2 years ago. Hopefully, we won't end up talking about sex. It's gonna be hard to break the news of me being a virgin. I know what your thinking, if they were your friends, it wouldn't matter. Yeah, they would get over it, they'd have to, but it would make me lose crediblity. Not to mention humiliate me, cause now they're gonna bring up all the lies I said. Not only that, but then they'd look at me in a different light. I would be the lying virgin instead of the cool and sometimes funny homie. You also might be thinking that I should find new friends. Well newsflash, I live in the ghetto, don't work, and don't know any young christians. So, I'm stuck with the stigma of being a lier. Now, I just must live with it. Maybe when they get older, they'd understand. I know, I'll just pray over it, YEah. Well, later diary.