What a hectic few days. Me and Michelle really haven't been getting along at all. Its just a bunch of petty arguments blown up. While I'd love to say its ALL her fault, I do take some of the blame. I don't know if its bias, but I honestly believe I am the one more in the right. However, since I am burned out, I'm going to skip the details.

The worse thing is that she attacked me on things that I trusted her with. That's what really ruins things. She says things that she knows will hurt me the most. It makes me put up all kinds of walls. So, with that being said, she has started to try to make things better, but the damage is done. It'll take alot of effort on her part. I dunno. It's a stresful time, with finals week and all. Anyways.......

I am so unhappy right now. I think I don't have a chance to get a "B" in Bio. That makes it almost impossible for me to get to UCLA. As long as UCDavis takes me in, I guess i'll be ok in that department. Other than that, things still suck. I have put in more effort into my friendships only to find it has no effect. I think that coupled with everything else in my life, has led to another bout of serious depression.

Also, I have to get a job somehow. The money won't last that long. Besides, if Michelle were to leave, there goes half of it. Its so freaking frustrating, especially knowing other students have family supporting them and have them as fallback.

The only good thing is my mom and my lil sister are in Oregon for a few days, attending some shakespeare festival. That leaves the place alot more quieter. Especially the mornings. Anyways, I'm really not in the mood for an entry, I feel angry, I feel sad, I feel all sorts of negative energy. That's all. ~END~