Sunday was a lot of work. Had to pack up all our stuff and leave from the motel. Now me and Michelle are staying at Alex's for atleast a week. Since he is doing this for me, I helped him unload all his stuff and put it away. THough helped may be the wrong word. I did the whole thing because he ofcourse is disabled. I didn't mind, but it was tiring as hell. He had more stuff than me! I thought I had a lot of crap. Anyways, after 6 hours of all that, me and Michelle bought some groceries and I decided to rent a game. I figure, since he's doing this big time favor for me, I should make him feel as good as posible.

We must find a place by the 1st. Motels are overpriced and I'm tired of moving. For those keeping count, I moved 3 times already in 3 weeks. Not only is it a hassle packing, but things are really unstable. Atleast at Alex's place, Michelle won't act up. I wish she was always like that. She lets the negative angry emotions get the best of her. At this point, she's only with me because she has begged me and absolutely refused to leave, knowing that I don't have the heart to toss her. *that could change though*

Besides that, I'm just trying to stay ok. Trying to apply the psychology I know. Sometimes, its impossible to do that, but I try. Just hope I don't become bitter or anything. Sometimes I find it hard to respect other's problems. I keep thinking, what are they bitching about, they got it made in the shade. I try to remember that the emotions are similar to what I got, just different triggers.

Blah blah blah I'm rambling. Oh yeah, I can do that, its a diary website. Might as well say it here, otherwise I won't get it out. I'm way too private to discuss even this stuff. *my problem* Ugh, keep analyzing this whole thing. I can never just let myself truely flow from the emotions any more. Must stop being a robot. ^Mustn't say that, windows is terminating^ "HEY"