Mon Oct 20 2003 - What I'm thinking about
What I'm thinking about
Dear Diary,

Ah yes, my favorite use of online time, writing DD entries. The freedom to express myself. Without DD, who would I talk to about my stuff? There is Michelle now, but this is still a great medium for letting out what's on my mind. Anyways, I must be Up if I'm writing all these. *heh*

Many things are on my mind. There's the bumping into Jessie. She believed I was "mugging" her. Mugging, for those not down with the slogan, means meanly staring at someone. Yeah, she thought I was mugging her. In fact, I didn't even see her. I was looking in Eliza's general direction. I like to make Eliza for uncomfortable because she never paid back my $60. I told Jessie that I don't do them "immature things and I'm too busy to stay and talk". Trivial, yeah, but something that amuses me.

Another thing on my mind is my "christianity". I don't think I could ever detach from this label/idea. It's a part of me like my hair. I could cut it, but I'm too conserative, and change is burdonsome. I'm thinking about finally trying to start back the relationship I once had with God. One thing holding me back is the paticular church I want to go to. Do I go to the non-denominatial one that Rebecca is a part of. It feels a bit too puritan (fundamental) for me and Michelle. Do I go back to being a Seventh-day Adventist? They lack community bonds and some of the rules feel dogmatic. I liked Jeff's Weslyen church, though I don't agree with thier doctrine and that paticular church is very middle class (read snobby). At this point, the doctrine is important, as is the community feel. I could hear some christians saying, "it doesn't matter which church as long as your following God". That's true but I want some of the intagibles too like going out camping and doing other stuff together in groups too. As for other churches, I dunno yet. I hate being the new comer. I atleast want to know somebody. I'm weird like that.

Well, other than all that, not too much else on my mind. I might play typer shark after this, fun game on yahoo. Maybe go to nfl.com and check on the raiders and chiefs game. GO CHIEFS! I dislike the raiders. Important game, I have Trent Green as my fantasy football guy. Anyways, I think I'll sneak online for just a minute. Take care peoples and have a nice day.

Comments (3)

just reading (Unauthenticated) (Legacy)
hei wha's up i find your entries interesting. I glad to hear that you are trying to get back with God again even though you are afraid of being committed. But being committed to God is sorta like being committed to loving someone. As for anyone, they all have to choose between either this or that sometimes in their life. What important is that choosing should be for the good, for the rightness, or for the pureness. I also notice that you are in love with this girl. How do you know that she is the right one for you. I wonder because I never fall in love before. And when you fall in love, do you pick her over your life? You can advice me by writing your response on your diary. I got to go eat dinner. Later
kaliko88 (Legacy)
Keep one thing in mind - the best church is the bible, especially a bible study group. It's starting to finally register with me that life with God is life in the Word.

And the Chiefs? Woohoo! My boys! But Trent Green - quite frankly he scares the whee out of us KC fans. Every time he goes for one of those long ones we're like OH NO! I wish he'd stick with the shorter throw plays.

>^..^<
Niels (Unauthenticated) (Legacy)
Id say read. Mark. Very good book. and the church i like best so far is the evangelical one. or non- denomination. But i found it hard to fit in. I'm also working on my relationship with God but its really hard. As long as i remember Jesus died for me.
greetings from north carolina. hope you have a good time there in sunny california.

Niels
 
 
 
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