The week has really been busy for me. I had to write this paper, study for a final and help Michelle "extensively" with a paper. Plus the usual school and work thing. Though the things of life are less stressful for me now. I feel a sense of peace. I think its all the therapy in my classes. LOL. Seriously, I do feel like I am learning a lot of things, emotionally, that have helped me. I think I had a lot of illogical feelings. While my logic has always been strong, I always felt betrayed, angry, empty and hurt. A bit of that is still there, but I think I am learning to appreciate my life and have love for others. Not just those in my inner cirle either.

One thing that has helped is this book called, "Tuesdays with Morrie". Its a great book. *something I have never said* I STRONGLY recommend it to everyone. Its basically about a person who is dying, realizing what is truely important. That is all I can say without ruining the story. I hear there was a movie made about it, but I doubt the movie matches the book.

In my personality class, I got my personality tests back. I got 3 of them. The 16PF, the MBTI and the POI. There is so much stuff, it would take too much to write. I'll cover some briefly, just for the sake of it. Everything is out of 10 on the 16PF; this first one I will cover. 5 is the average person.

It says, I'm a 4 on extraversion. *no surprise there* I'm a 5 on anxiety. A 4 on toughmindedness. 6 on independance. A 3 on self-controled. *thus, they say i'm "unrestrained" 6 on personal warmth. A 2 on socially bold. A 3 on rule consciousness. A 9 on abstractness. A 7 on my openness to chantge. A 4 on relaxed. A 3 on tension. It also says I'd like "investigative" type of careers.

The MBTI says, I'm a INFJ. That is Introverted Intutitive Feeling Judger. It says I'm strongly introverted. Also strongly intuitive. It says that I am only slightly a "feeler". It says I have a slight amount of Judging as well.

They say, "INFJ's Seek meaning and connection in ideas and relationships and material possesions. Want to understand what motivates people and are insightful about others. Conscientious and commited to thier firm values. They develop a clear vision about how best to serve the common good. Organized and decisive in implementing thier vision.

Though I see myself as more of a perciever. I think because I said I don't like spontanoues activities. Sounds odd, I know, but I have found that spontanous activities don't work out because they aren't planned out. I like things at the spur of the moment, but just like things to be planned. Anyways.

The POI is the most vague one. Likely because the test sucks. They give you questions like, "I always look out for others" or "I always look out for myself". So you have to pick one of the two. Or, "I think man is essentially good" or "I think man is essentially evil". However, I don't think in terms of duality. I look out for myself and others. I think man is both evil and good. I lean towards man is more evil and look out for myself, but only slightly. Basically, I'm "average". Almost every measure I flirt around the 50th percentile. The only ones I am "below" average is on "Living in the past" and nature of man. The rest are very average. Things like "self-actuallizing value, existentiality, feeling reactivity, spontaneity, self regard, synergy, acceptance of aggression and capacity for intimate contact.

If you asked me, the first test is more like me than the others. Its not perfect and I feel only scratchs the surface, but that is all I expect from these tests. For I react differently based on person, situation, mood, etc.

One thing that I think I've found is how to circumvent the tests. I know what they are measuring and think I could fool it if I wanted to. Though, just for clarity, I will likely take Psychological testing soon. HEHEHE.

I got a taste of psych testing in my personality class because my professor discussed it. *being that he teachs the class on psych testing as well* One thing for sure is that , them IQ test are garbage. The only thing they can be used for is as a predictor for academic success. Sorta makes me rethink the high score I got before. True IQ is about the ability to be inivative, creative, and have a great ability to expand on known knowledge. Plus, we discussed about how IQ will be "elevated" on multi-choice IQ tests because of chance, and having the answer right in front of you. Much like people do much better on multichoice tests than on essay form tests on the same material.Plus, people who do good at school just have a better "memory". Spit back what the professor told you and you're well on your way. And, IQ is relative to the culture.

If you go to Africa and they all know the specifics of building a hut and you don't, you would have "low IQ" there. Even lower if you didn't know how to hunt. So IQ is really how much you know what is valued in your culture.

Besides that mini-rant, not much else going on. Michelle says, "Baby.....". That means, "Ok, haven't you typed enough, I'm hungry!" A couple more minutes I say. She moans. She thinks, "Its always a couple more minutes. Last time, a couple more minutes turned to a half hour". Ok Ok, I guess I'll get off. I say, "What you thinking" She says, "I got to start thinking what I'm going to do in life" SHe is now on my shoulders while I'm TYPING! AHH! SHE laughs at me. Hops off. She is humored by me typing about her. She loves it. She scratches her head. Then her back. MOsquitos bites. She hates them. THey're everywhere. WHy did they bite me and not him? She wonders. I get hit on my head. OW?! A hug follows a snapping of my boxers. She's left. That's all for now. Typing more would be pushing it. She says, "BABY!" That's my cue for , "its been 2 minutes already." Ok, I'm coming......