Well, maybe I shouldn't put good. I didn't end up going to a church or anything. I really have been slacking on that. I keep making excuses. I know I probaly could get a ride if I really tried. I think it also has to do with me wanting to take Michelle to a chruch that doesn't have a bunch of up tight people who will make her have an even worse impression of christians. Even though I know I should be going for God alone, I have been having all sorts of problems with that. Anyways, the day had me playing video games and waiting for Alex to come over. He finally did after I cooked some dinner. *Michelle was being on the LaZy side* Me and ALex ended up playing some games and it all ended alright.

Monday morning comes around and it starts bad. Michelle had promised me to make me hot chocolate before we shower. It's 7 and she wants to get right in because my brother was getting in at 7:40. I wanted my chocolate. So I got mad at her because she forgot and just wanted to hurry up. The thing is, my mom was giving us a ride and we didn't have to leave till after 9. *AM* So then she's mad and lays between me and alex. She then says she's going to sleep. She told me and ALex to stop talking. I looked at her crazy *its my room and that's not the right way to say that* and I told her that I'm up now and I'm talking to my friend. She then tells me to shutup. That's when it all goes crazy. She's yelling, pinching, throwing stuff, and crying. I almost physically throw her out. I was so mad. I wanted to make a good impression for alex, since I want him to be our roomate when we move. I had told him that we don't fight that much anymore and she isn't so out of control. It made me sound stupid and worse, made him probaly feel like he doesn't want to move in with us. She eventually has a really sad sounding cry and gives me this sad eye contact. *like she's sorry* I go in for the hug and we talk about it in the shower. We eventually go to college.

While there, we eat with alex and then she bails me out of statistics. *she did my homework* I'm happy but I'm really emotionally drained. I keep falling asleep in class for seconds at a time. The quick dreams would have him talking and me writing. When I woke up, it was all scribbles. I couldn't wait to get out that class. Then I had to go to Biology. *UGH* I ended up doing the same thing. When it was all over, I was so glad. Found michelle and eventually went home.

Things are ok now but I am really drained. Just putting the entry 'cause I been wanting to get back in the habit of putting a daily entry. I also want to get a couple other diaries read. Then respond to some comments. *I feel like this day will never end* I then want to try some kind of connection with God through prayer. Life has felt very empty lately.