Lately I've been rethinking this whole public diary thing. Why, well, typing on here puts me at great risk. One of the risk, someone finding it. How would I handle it. *not sure* And why am I making it public, just to entertain ppl! *no that ain't it* I mean, that is why ppl come here? Maybe you want to compare lives. Or what? Why do you ppl come here? Is it to post comments? Are you just plain bored?

Well, to find out why I came here, I went back, back to when I typed my first entry. There, It seemed I poured out my past. And that helped me somehow. *wonders if that is why* But why public. I guess cause I wanted someone out there to help me with my problems. *thinks that is it* I figured maybe they'll give me a persecptive I didn't realize or see. And you ppl have. So do I need to continue with it. *weighnig the pros and cons* I think I've come to far to go back now. *remembers when janed0e took off her diary* I felt kinda sad that she took it off. *do i want to do that to ppl, no* Making it private still won't protect this diary from my big bro and my mom. Since they have access to this computer. * the two ppl I really don't want to have read it* *now I'm thinking bout what honey said eariler "Don't make any rash decisions"* I guess the ultimate question is, do I continue with this diary, or take it down. *and erase all of it* Well, I find writing here helps me release the pent up emotions in me. Is that worth the risk. I guess so. But barely. I guess if they find it that I'll just have to face the consequences. But like I said, why am i gonna go back to holding it all in again, just because of them. *thinks of making this entry private* Maybe this whole entry will only benefit me. *Well, if they don't like it, they can click elsewhere* With that being said. Hope you all a nice day.