Well, last night I thought about it. My conclusion. Just say it. Stop the runaround. The diary is for me, so I can look back and smile. Not to worry about what you here at DD think. Well, with that said, let me type bout it.

Before I came to write this entry, I realized something too. There are worse things than revealing that *here it is* I've never offically been the boyfriend of any girl. NOw I've been on dates. Just the regarding of me as a boyfriend never happened. For me this is big, *embarrassing* I'm 20 years old and I still haven't had a first girlfriend. Though I've been kissed. *that's another entry* I guess I worry about the stigma. This is much harder in real life. Here at DD, you'll forget in 2 days, if not sooner. NOw in the real world, I'd get teased, everytime by my friends. They'd be like, I bet you wish she was your first. OR something round them lines. Anyways, typing here is like a stepping stone for me. maybe I can just tell my friends to accept me for who I am. The thing I worry about too is that they're perception of me would change. I like the perception I got.

Anyways, that was it. Nothing to bad I guess. Things could be worse I realize. Well, clean slate now. Nothing burdoning me now. :D WEll, it still is, just not as much.