Today I had to get a MRI scan to check on my brain tumor. The procedure was an hour-long and had the usual noises that if you heard in a different context, you'd swear a nuclear bomb was being prepared to launch by accident. Being used to all of this, I fell asleep. (I was quite tired as well) I'll know what is going on when I go to my appointment in August. I should be doing good as my cabergoline is keeping it small; as indicated by some blood tests. However, August 31st will be the last day the coverage we have will continue. After that, we hope to be on Medi-cal or on the Kaiser Steps program. I'm also trying to be on this program that pays for high cost medical problems via COBRA and HIPPA program....we'll see what happens.

I didn't actually have a heart scan per se, but did recieve a call from my older brother Ricky. (If you haven't noticed, I almost never mention him) Me and him have never got along; from early childhood to adulthood. I basically broke off all communication with him after I moved out my mom's 5 years ago. I figured having someone who was trying to be a "gangsta" wasn't associating with. (not to mention how he hasn't bothered keeping up with his 2 sons' life) So anyhow, he called to wish me well on my MRI on what not and we got back into our old arguments. I essentially asked him to repay for some of the recent stuff he damaged (such as destroying my laptop and stealing my camcorder) He initially refused saying that I should forgive him and that it has nothing to do with money. I reminded him of a few of the many things he did and I stated that while I think I will forgive him that I needed him to fix what he could. (as he has costed me several thousands of dollars) After some more trying to defend himself, he gave in and offered me a dollar a day "like you do to those Cambodian kids" (him) I told him I wanted 10 a day but the main breakthrough was the fact that he is trying to make it better. (as I stated in my argument, money isn't everything but people, especially him, put a lot of importance on it and is on way of symbolicly trying to make up for things.) Bah, anyways, I don't think I need to justify the whole thing as long as us two have an agreement.

Besides that, me, Michelle and lil Tino are doing just fine. You guys can see updated pics of him on my myspace comments from my lil sister (or you could copy and paste http://s24.photobucket.com/albums/c12/vanessamesa/?action=view¤t=0729082115.jpg. We're going to get a family portrait soon. We might have to buy more clothes for him as he is growing so fast.

I reenrolled at UC Davis so I'll be attending during the Fall. Haven't picked classes yet.

Talked to Ray recently and at the time it seemed him and Carmen were breaking up. It seemed he concluded that he really wanted children and realized that she can't. (her tubes are tied and she is in her mid 40's, him mid 20's) 2 days later, he reversed and didn't elaborate. Seems someone is in love. I am wondering what his plan is to deal with her 20 something year old son who from all reports is quite a troublemaker. (he looks quite scary and tattooed too.) The kid doesn't know about it yet. How will he will deal with a stepfather who is only a couple years older than him shall be interesting. I do hope the best for Ray, but I do think he should break it off. However, I try to be supporting of whatever decisions he comes to as I realize that that is what people really want.

Anyhow, I'm getting bored of writing for now so I hope your summer is going ok. I'll keep updating from time to time, but I am still not sure why I should write anymore. I mean, I know what I think now and am not as interested in what others have to say anymore. I feel a disconnect as I realize that online people are not a substitue for a caring family or a close friend. I suppose I'd like to still have a record of what happened to me. I do look forward to some input from time to time for a couple of you guys. Anyways, that's all for now. Take care people.