The search for a new apartment is over. *did I even mention it much anyway?* We got approved! It was the same apartments that rejected us 2 years ago. Remember? I could tell by that look on your face that you don't. It was in a nice area, close the the college and looked nice. Back then, we didn't have a residential history, any credit and we were both unemployed. That caused us to jump from motel to motel. We almost lost all the money we saved up. So I'm happy about that.

So now the bad news. I had went to the doctor a week ago. They took some blood from me to analyze. They call me yesterday and inform me that my prolactin levels are high. For those without thier PH.D's in edocrine science, that's the abnormal hormone that my tumor made/makes. They also say that my testostrone is low and so is my cortisol. I think you guys know what testostrone is. I tend to consider you guys bright-normal. Cortisol helps with: proper glucose metabolism, regulation of blood pressure, insulin release for blood sugar maintanence, immune function, and inflammatory response. If not obvious by now, that list is from a website.

So right now, I'm very surprised and not so surprised. I'm surprised because somehow I thought that I'd be better. I live healtier and don't stress as much. And on the flip side, I'm not surprised because I didn't take my pills. My logic knew this would happen, but I just didn't want to live as though I'm managing a brain tumor all the time. You know? I guess I'll have to take stupid pills. I don't really like to really on the pharmacuticals but I guess I have no choice. *sigh*

That's all I guess. I am a lil worried because I have to get another MRI and stuff. I'm trying to see it as the tumor is half empty. I think I'll be alright. Actually, I hope I'll be alright and I think I'm stupid for not wanting to face the side effects of some pills. This upsets me. I feel mad at my own body for not being a better body. *smirk* Like, why didn't you destroy the cell when you had the chance. Anyways, thats it for now. Take care