Mon Apr 26 2004 - The OUTER me
The OUTER me
Usually, I write about my day and then express how I felt about things. Followed by some introspection and thought. A conclusion and that's it. However, I don't generally talk about how other's possibly see me. Also, there are real life thingys that you would notice or think about me as soon as you seen me. So, here's the Outer me.

Ok, on first glance, I look about 15. Since I"m in college and look so young, people always tend to think I'm smart. I am generally called or thought to be white. Though white people know I'm not truely caucasin, and can see the hispanic in me. My hair is sometimes geled. It appears somewhat spikey and curly. I generally wear black shirts with jeans or shorts. The style is basically skater/casual. I have braces and my voice is light. Though not Micheal Jackson light, just a lil light. I have a very slight mexican accent. Though Michelle somehow thought I talked more whiteish. I look like I'm just slightly out of shape. Btw, I'm 5'7. My status is poor but i make sure that I don't give that impression.

As for my demeanor, I am laid back and seem a lil shy. I take a lil time to warm up. I am known to be a good listener. I'm polite and try not to cut people off. However, with people I know well, I cuss, but not that much. I come off as a thinker but ofcourse, I'm truely a feeler. Also, I tend to have main themes with people. For example, some guys I just talk sports. For christians, religon. Whatever I think the persons favorite subject is. Though I won't engage with people who are players or just like to gossip. However, I have problems truely opening up with people other than Michelle. I have alot of things that can be used against me and I believe alot of people like to know things just for thier own personal entertainment.

In ongoing frienships, I tend to try to make the first goodwill gesture. I will treat them out or make an effort to hang out and stuff. I will also call first. However, I no longer continue the goodwill gestures after a second time, unless it is returned somehow. That is to avoid being used. Anyways, I am not big on calling people. I love IMing them. That is my favorite form of communication.

Things that my friends know about me is that I love snacks. Espeically chocolate and pizza. Those are almost daily for me. They also know I'm really into psychology. I know alot of theories and try to apply them to stuff. They also know Michelle is almost never seen without me. I think that they think I'm a lil too attached to her. The thing is, me and Michelle love going LITERARLLY everywhere together. They know I'm a computer geek. Though not the traditonal glasses geek. The kind that can "do" stuff on computers that most can't. I can not go on about that publicly. Anyways.

I do have flaws, I am human. I think I lost some of my geniuiness. When I'm mad at a friend, I will belittle them in a way that they can't say anything back to me. Also, like I said earlier, I don't share my inner me. I do ask questions about others, but I don't let people know alot of stuff. I think this makes them feel alienated from me and they don't care about who I am, because to them, I'm just about talking about stuff, but not about me. I also don't stand for nothing. I'm not quite a christian. I'm not quite an atheist. I don't believe in a cause. I don't show my emotions alot. I'm not really funny. Maybe a Seinfeld type funny, but not a funny funny guy. Maybe I don't enjoy life as much as I should.

Well, that's all I can think of for the moment. If you have a questiona bout me, feel free to ask, I'll answer. That's all. Later

Comments (1)

InaudibleMelodies (Legacy)
I always think it's interesting the different personas we suggest to different people, I know I probably have a few different impressions I give people without realising.

I used to play team fortress :) Played it all the time a couple of years back b/c I wasn't very keen on counterstrike. Then got playing counterstrike as James did and now I probably play it more than he does as far as I know.
 
 
 
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