Ok, so after my previous entry I chatted with Jayne. First we chatted about the party then I told her I wanted to surrond myself with good people. Then she said, you know what, everyday is a new day, filled with small changes. *at first I'm like what else is new but I continue to listen* So she says, if you can improve just 1% everyday, by the end of the year I'd be 365% better. *sounded interesting* So she tells me shes gonna record the small changes in life, presents from God. 10 a day, like her friend. Then she recommends I do the same. At first I'm kinda hesitent, be eventually I do. I go over a list of good things in my life with her. Ok, so here it comes

1. MOM give me nice hug
2. the party heard round the net
3. I made the top ten *though I don't know how that is a good thing, guess more friends*
4. My mom and big bro tell me they love me, even though they forget the important things.
5. Got my fav dinner.
6. I still have working limbs
7. No more crazy headaches
8. Talking to buggie
9. talking to honey
10. Talking to jayne

THere I have it, then good things. Oh, how was the talking to them a good thing. Well, they all made my day better when I was down. Anyways, we'll see how long I can keep thinking of good things in my day. You know, remember the good, forget the bad. Should help me be happy. Also, this anger I have deep within me. I got to get it out. Something I don't really even talk about here. What is this anger. Just a lil anger built from time to time. NOw it's not little. Why can't I let it go, well, I like to think I have good reason to be mad. BUt in reality this hanging on is ruining me. Just hope this method above helps that process. Maybe with the hapiness, the anger will go away. *or just lessen* Then I could be happy with myself. After that, the sky is the limit. Well, we'll see. Time will tell. I personally don't know if this thing will work, but I'm willing to try. *though I tend to believe nothing can help me* Ack, stupid pessimistic self showing up again. BACK I SAY, BACK!!! THat's all.