I want to thank all four that commented on my previous entry. When I read that I got 3 online hugs and 4 people trying to me advice, kinda made me happy. Ok, no kinda. It did. To unauthticated person, if I could kick my brother to the curb I would. As for me not leaving, there are multiple reasons. First, I don't have the money. Though I've been saving a lil. Second, I need to make sure my lil brother and sister are ok when I'm gone. Since I'm they're only voice and I take care of them alot. It's really hard for me to leave them since I raised both of them from lil baby upwards. I'm really close to them. They are close to me. THey have told me "please don't leave" . How could I leave with them asking not to.

Jayne, I just may try out that book. SInce I'm gonna have alot more free time now. *hugs ya back* Thanks for the comment. To honey, remember I told ya I understand if you don't chat. You have so much to do I'm surpirsed you have enough energy to go on the computer. Since you work, take care of Rd, now your dad, and so much more. I understand. As for finding my kind of friends, maybe one day. I hope so. *hugs ya* Dazler, I love the quotes and thanks for the hug. *hugs ya too*

Well, almost college time. I'm not gonna hang out there. I'm going there, then straight home. I don't think I could stand to see everyone be so happy when its obvious I"m not. If I see Eliza, I'm still gonna say hi, just no more hanging out. Eventually, she will ask what is wrong and I'm gonna tell her.

Ok, time to get back on track with my life. I want to be like I was while I had the tumor. *minus the tumor ofcourse* I'm not gonna be as emotional anymore. I'm gonna seperate myself from people till further notice. Even online people. I'll still write here on my diary, just I won't sit up hoping for someone to "im" me. I'm offically out the dating scence too. If someone like me, they better come up to me. I'm through letting my emotions get played with. Tired of the rejection. I'm tired. *YAWN* LOL. Also, time to get back into God. Time to let him take over my day to day. I hope all this works. I'll keep ya'll posted, k!!