Lately, I've been thinking, "what if someone in my house finds out that I write a diary" It is very plausable. First off, everyone here uses the computer. Second, I don't have locks on my door. Third, I usally type this diary while the family is still awake.

So, what if they found it. How would things change? Would we have a closer relationship? Well, here's what would be new to them. First off, no one even has the littlest inklin that I ever feel depressed. Why, cause, I never let anyone see that side of me. Second, they would now my true feelings for them. My mom believes that I think she was a decent mom. Why not the truth, it'll only start arguments. Third, they don't know about my personal life. Like the struggles I go through being a virgin, or me even calling crystal. Another thing, they would look at me weird cause I shared so much personal info with perfect strangers. Which, maybe I am, but so what. I guess I don't mind cause I feel someone out there should know the real me. And maybe eventally I can have the guts to share my true feelings all the time with everyone. Though I am weary of that, cause sometimes true feelings can make people change the way they think of you. NOt always for the better. Like that I almost resent the fact that I have to raise my little bro and sis. I mean, there is never really that much I do for me, it's like I'm already old, always thinking about them first, then me second. Don't get me wrong, I love my lil bro and sis to death, but I feel like it's too much for me sometimes. Like always solving all thier problems, and buying them the stuff they want.

So, what do ya'll think, do I share to much info with ya'll. Do you think my family would be able to handle the diary. What about any girlfriends. Don't they get to know the person they might spend the rest of thier life with. Sometimes I feel if somegirl knew the real me that maybe they'd be able to cut to the chase. If they like the real me, then we'd almost most certainly get along. And if not, we both wouldn't have to waste time playing silly games.