It's not so bad having new ways to process feelings. Gives you different ways to look at the same problem. Sometimes it takes several views to finally figure out what to do.

Don't worry so much about the ambiguousness. You're right in the middle of schooling, so things are going to be a little vague. They'll snap into place. You're at exactly the same point I was at the same time, trying to figure out what I wanted to do. It actually wasn't until I got a taste of real journalism that I decided to go simpler. I still learned a lot, and still use a lot of it, so it wasn't wasted.

It may take you getting a taste for the real thing to decide what you like. And who knows, it could change even years later. My mom has been a nurse in four different areas now. She likes learning new things.

As for dividing your time, I mean just that. I'm not the type of person who plans in detail. The pocket calendars I carry have very little written in them. But I do have several things I have to do, others that should be done, and quite a number I like to do. I try to balance the time according to priority. It's taken several different methods, but I'm starting to figure out how I best get things done and still leave time for the fun stuff. Some things I put on hold while I do other things, then I pick them up again. Balance. Nothing has to be divided equally, but it should be balanced in a way that makes you feel satisfied.

We all wish we had a regular person to talk to. I settled for cats. They don't mind how terrible I look after crying. You don't have to, though. You've got more friends than I do, and you're better at opening up. It will all get worked out somehow, even if it takes a while.

And don't worry too much about the fight. One day you two will learn how to disagree. Just try to also learn how to have fun making up. The key is no grudges. I just hope you're not as mean as my hubby - he likes to tickle.

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Why do you insist on shoving yourself into a set form at your age??? is it becasue if you get that settled in your mind you can go on to other things???? YOu will not be the same person in 5 years or 10 or 15 etc. that is a called growth. Do you assume you are finished growing now??? i don't think you do your too intelligent for that! people are a complex group of personalities. you are one to your parents , another to your wife, still another to your children and grandchildren and another to co-workers and another to friends. None of which may be the one you are to you. Stop obsessing on this and let life BE! things change from day to day and so shall you. The ONLY thing sure is change. You might say it is the only hope for the future. you can't wrap it in a little ball and say o.k. this is me. Now i know how i must act and feel for the rest of my life. Oh how simple that would be if we could. I'm very glad i'm not the person I was in my 20's and i was starting to come around in my 30's. I'll never be perfect and neither will any one else. i once thought i had to be and almost drove myself nuts with the effort. O.k. look at my typing and spelling....would you believe I NEVER dropped off the Deans list in college???? (Oh NO we couldn't have that!!!)that's a fact...now I can type this mess and live with it !!!! Progress??? some say no, I say YES!!!!! You could read it couldn't you??? See that's is all that is necessary, that and the fact that I got my message across! (HUGS) SAL