Its been yet ANOTHER long time since I wrote. Well actually, I did post a couple private ones, but other than that, I haven't wrote much. Not that there hasn't been alot, there is always alot, just time constraints and all the stuff I need to get off my chest I say to Michelle. It's alot better than writing it online and then hoping someone responds. Though the obvious drawback is the fact that I can't look back and can't really let all my online friends keep tabs on me. I feel bad not talking to them, I hope they don't feel ignored, though if they felt that, they'd be in the right simply because they are infact being ignored at the moment. Not in the mean "i'm not talking to you" way, but the I just have alot of taken up moments way.

As for me, I'm doing great. It's been a long while since I could honestly say that. Obviously love has made all my problems alot less though at times it still bothers me. It's great that I feel great due to love, though I also worry that if something happens where me and Michelle don't work out somehow, that this delicate house of cards I call my happiness will go crumbling down. That is something I've been trying to change in a way. I know logically that God needs to be in charge of my life and emotions. Also that people come and go. As magical as this relationship is, I know that I can't always rely on Michelle for everything. Not only is it not psychologically healthy, but it's not what God wants. It's frustrating because part of me just wants to rely totally on this relationship. Argh.

Well, off the classes I go early this saturday morning. My schedule is packed with work followed by school. This week I haven't worked, but next I have work from 7:30 to 4:30, then night and weekend classes. I'm not 100% sure I can pull this off. Hope this DMV job is the same as the last one I had. That was relatively easy. Though that was a one time project thingy I worked on; so it will be different. Unfortunatly so will the pay. Ok, gotta go : ( ~END~