It all started this morning. I set the alarm for 9:30 AM. Me and Michelle both woke up when it went off. However, we both were really sleepy and feel back asleep. Almost exactly an hour later, we wake up and run to the shower. While we're in there, Michelle is taking her sweet time. I had told her yesterday that we had to leave at 11AM. In the shower, I reminded her that we had to go. I leave the shower and get my stuff ready. I'm ready but I remember that there is a shortcut to get to the bus stop. So I go tell Michelle, who is STILL showering. I say, "You have to leave now if you want to catch the bus!" She continues to shower *over 30 minutes* and gets out right when I have to go. I tell her, "Just hurry, we can probaly still make it". She tells me that she don't have to worry and that I should just leave. So I leave. I get on the bus and try to cool down.

While on the bus, this old lady is telling the bus driver she didn't go to some stop. I partially listen because her voice carried. Then, instead of going to downtown, the bus driver decides to loop back around and take this lady to the stop. That takes an extra 15 minutes and I'm really angry. I ask what she is doing and why isn't she going to downtown. She tells me, "Look, your just going to have to accept it. Life is unfair, get use to it." I'm thinking, "OMG, why is this shit happening to me, I got a Chemistry quiz today and the professor isn't going to care what happened on the bus.

So anyways, I get to downtown and I apologize for raising my voice. *What why?* I will have to see her again and I don't want her not let me on next time. I already have had a bus driver do that. So then I eventually get to the college and I'm late. Everyone is taking the quiz. Luckily, the professor just handed me the quiz and didn't rag on me about it.

Right now I'm mad at Michelle. She had just got a job yesterday and didn't show up because she was being stubborn. She knows more than anyone that we need the money. Instead, when I talk to her on the phone, she is yelling at me about not having a job. I can't take this anymore. She only does stuff if she is fearful or if money is invovled. That wouldn't be bad if I could scare her, but somehow, me raising my voice don't intimidate her one bit. What really hurts is that if a professor wanted her to do something, she does it. If someone will give her money, she'd do it. If someone was going to hurt her, she'd do it. But to make me happy and show her love, she can't. I'm almost crying because it really hurts that she only does things for others, but not for me. I want to break up with her but who knows if it'll really happen. I still love a part of her. I know what's inside, but she really needs to bring that out. I know our lives are stressful because of all this shit, but instead of helping, she adds to the problem. Anyways, that's all, I don't feel like typing any more right now.