Ok, I"m gonna try to make this quick, since I have to go very soon. Man, what a difference a phone call can make. After talking to my doctor, my mom has grown way more concerned about me. I guess she realized after my doctor told her that this is very serious and me without pills is a danger to my health and I could still die. After that, my mom told my family. Now they're like all hugging me and saying how much they care. Wow, a lil late. Still, its nice to know they are concerned. A lil shocked, cause I did break news to them that I have tumor, and I must take pills. THen again, I said it very calm like. *as my mom pointed out* Guess they didn't realize that my life is still at stake.

NOw all this has me rethinking things too. I mean, I knew its been at stake, but haven't really tripped on it. Best not start now, cause then I'll end up depressed. I'm trying to avoid that emotion.

Anyways, my big brother is really scared. The mall where he works had a bomb threat. And Bush is coming to town tomorrow too. HE thinks they may attack his mall. Even his store was singled out for a threat. Bush is coming to reassure troops and talk to business leaders. Hmmmmm, hope this ain't some creppy foreshawdowing. October 16,2001 11:34 AM PST. Just wanted to put that just in case. Big bro says this would be perfect, big target on west. California has the United States biggest economy too. And this is the capital. Just a couple of thoughts. Ok, i'm rambling now, and I really have to go. Bye