What started out as a pretty typical ok day turned into a nearly terrible day. It started with us picking up our second to last DMV check. Me and Michelle deposit it and meet Alex at college. He needed directions on how to get to the DMV and wanted me to wait in line with him. He is however late and we end up not going to the DMV. Still, he promised to take me out. SO I take him up on his offer and go. Eat pizza, and relax. The day is going GOOD. We Then go back to college and Michelle gets some books. Me and Alex meet up with Donald. We go to the nearby pizza place. Play some air hockey. It's all gravy. After awhile, Michelle shows up.

She walks in and we're watching the Kings and Mavericks game. *basketball game on tv* Michelle then tells me she wants to go home. I tell her that I just want to watch a lil bit and stuff. SHe then tells me she's sick and tired. I then ask her if I can just see a little and we will ride home. *I wanted to actually see if she was sick or just wanted me to leave* Instead of waiting, she decides that she is angry because I'm not complying with her demand. So she tells me she is going to my house. She walks out briefly and comes back. SHe then grabs some soda and threatens to throw it on me. I eventually grab soda from her. She then turns off the tv. We then go into the main tv area. SHe continues to tell me she wants to go home. By then, I was almost going to but then thought about it, she didn't seem so sick or tired. In fact, she had alot of energy. SO then she realizes I'm not going to listen to her. SHe then turns off the main tv. The owner gets mad and tells her that she can't touch the tv. She then is sad. SHe starts crying. I nearly went over there and comforted her, but then I thought about it, not once had she asked what I wanted. She didn't want to compromise with me. SHe wanted what she wanted. Fact is that she didn't have anything to do at home, while I had the game I was watching and enjoying with my friends. So I explain to her that I felt that since I got this game that I feel is important to me, I want to watch it. She tells me she doesn't see any importance in the game. I explain that I do. Michelle then says which one is more important. I told her that "that" wasn't the issue. The issue was that are we going to do something one of us feels is important or are we going to simply do nothing important and go home.

After all that, Michelle gets Alex to lend her his cell phone. SHe then calls her family. Then she calls the airlines. She then tells her friends that she will be home soon and that we are no longer together. Not only that, but she is poking me and throwing balled up pieces of paper at me. *so much for being so sick huh* So at that point, I'm sitting down trying to pretend it don't phase me. Though I could barely think of anything else. I was kinda getting sad but kept up my face because I didn't want to be all depressed looking and stuff in front of my friends. Eventually we leave the pizza place.

While walking down the street, it seemed like it was really gonna end. It seemed like she was really going to leave back to her home. She didn't even get her book bag and was acting totally snotty towards me. I eventually get the bookbag. I was going to put it in the book drop. *the reason being I wasn't going to hold it and she threw it twice when I handed it to her* I then decide to wait up for her while running to book drop. SHe then runs for me. I wait there and ask her to take it all back on her knees or the relationship will really be over. So she does. *I was half surprised* I then hug her. She breaks down in tears. She tells me she don't know what came over her. We then talk about it. I explain to her that I would've listened to her had she not demanded and really would've been tired or sick. She explains that she is idealistic and sometimes wants me to just listen to her unconditionally. I try to explain how unrealistic her belief is. The thing is, I do try to be the perfect boyfriend. However, she wants perfection. Michelle has alot of idealistic beliefs about relationships and says that I could actually meet up with her beliefs. I tell her that I can't because I"m not perfect. NO human is. We are all flawed. While I didn't want to say her beliefs were wrong, I did point out that I believed it was wrong of her to believe that she could impose them on me. It's like, she wants to think I will literally do anything whenever she says. So in other words, when she says jump, I'm suppose to say, how high. ANd not just that, but sometimes I should volunteer to do stuff I I'm suppose to know flatters her. Not just once a month or something. More like daily!!!! Or atleast pretty often.

PHew, I'm bored of explaining it to myself. Point is that me and Michelle had a dispute and in my humble opinion, I believe it was wrong of her to try to force me to go home and forsake what I'm doing just to go home and do nothing. *just incase your wondering, here at home we showered and then she went to sleep on bed* The worse part of all this is that this is not the first time. It is the second time she has made it seem like she was going to go back to her home. Makes me feel like maybe I should protect myself and be on guard because she can strike. Though I know better than feelings. For relationships to work, there has to be total open communication between both. Not just that but consideration for ther other. OK, that is all. ~END~