Lots has changed since I last wrote. For one, I'm no longer at my old place. My mom finally moved us. I finally got my OWN room. *not some stupid converted hallway* The moving part wasn't without a few hitches.

My mom for one seriously didn't want me and Michelle to move with her. After several long drawn out arguments, we finally moved got our stuff and got to move. While moving here, Lorenzo gets mad at Rick because his friends had some beers. He argues with my mom and then after my mom tries to calm the situation down, Lorenzo explodes because she wasn't on his side. He starts grabbing at her. She comes in my room with Vanessa. *vanessa is in my room at the time crying because she missed the old house* She shuts the door and he kicks it open. Rick and his friends come out and he leaves. He threatens us. We then have to stay up wondering if this fool is gonna kill us. The reason we were thinking that is because my mom was crying saying that she's gonna die because Lorenzo has a gun. So after a long night of securing things and having my lil bro,sis and Michelle scared, it's finally over after the sun comes up. After all that, my mom lets him in about 4 hours after sun comes up. I'm surprised because I thought she had a perfect chance just to leave him out there and get the restraining order she said she wanted.

It's a bunch of crap because my mom is never happy. Now that I'm paying rent and things are being cleaned, now she is finding little things to nit-pick with me and Michelle. She doesn't say anything to my brother because she's scared of him. Since I'm nice, she uses me to take out her frustrations. She has some serious frustrations too. Just she can't flex it against anyone else. Hard to describe. You'd have to be here to understand. Basically, she believes she is doing me the biggest favor by just letting me live her and for that, she can tell me and Michelle to do ANYTHING. I don't really care for her crap though. It's a double standard. My big bro is 24 almost 25. She NEVER would yell or tell him things she tells me.

There have been some positive stuff though. For one, having my own room has allowed me to have some privacy and space. Also, it keeps everyone out when me or Michelle aren't in the mood for people.

Other stuff going on is me and Michelle looking for work. Well, kinda. We haven't tryed as hard as we probaly should. It's frustrating because our money is going down really fast. Not to mention my mom loves to hold that over our head. Even though Lorenzo and Rick are also not working, they never hear it from her. I actually can't wait for the summer semester of college. So much for a break. This feels like a long stress period between classes. It's surprising I actually got 2 A's and 2 B's this semester with the crap going on here. Hopefully I can acheive an A or b this summer. I know the cardio-kickboxing class i'm taking will be an A. It's the ENglish class I'm worried about. I know I can come up with ideas. Its the grammar. *lol, michelle just fixed a grammarical mistake of mines, crazy coincidence* Anyways.

Hasn't been totally negative. Me and Michelle have been getting along pretty good. *except for one night were we were both saying mean stuff that isn't true* We've walked and talked. Listened to love music from KC&jo jo, savage garden, and Janet Jackson. :) Not to mention this house is ALOT cleaner than my old room. It makes me feel better. No roaches and mold. That's always a plus. And

Spirtually, I think actually can be going slightly up. I finally feel a little bit more confident about believing in the bible and stuff. That's a big plus since I don't feel like I have to worry about following the wrong thing. Now I feel like I now have to choose for God. For awhile, I wasn't sure what choice I was going to choose. Whether it be live my life the way I want or the way God wants.

A final really postive I forgot was the weird fact that Medi-cal has started covering me again out of nowhere. THey sent me a card and it worked. I got free pills at Wal-Greens. *?!* Gonna set up a doctor appointment as soon as the phone service is activated in this house. Ok, that is all. Thanks for the comment kaliko. That is all. ~END~