Boy, today was up and down. Heck, left and right too. Ok, first, I go hang out with Candace. She talks to me about all her stress and I tell her some stuff. After that, I'm kinda up cause she was like, one day me and you should hang out outside campus. *just as friends, cause I mentioned that Jeff is the only one that hangs out with me off campus* So I go to my Speech class after that. I got my test back. VERY VERY VERY DISAPPOINTING!!! THe whole class messed up actually. Which means his test was a lil TOO hard. Average scores were in the 20's. *out of 40* Highest score was 35. And no, it wasn't me. :(
So I go to the cafeteria afterwards.
There, I see Eliza, Alex, and a few others. We talk for a bit then decide that we should go to Round Table Pizza. *Well, not the few others, just me, Eliza and Alex* We go and eat there. Is ok. Made me feel better eating pizza. While eating, ofcourse we talked. ALot of it showed me what kind of person Eliza is. She talked alot about the different liquors she has drank. Anyways, eventually we go back to cafeteria.
Jeff eventually shows up. He is alright till everyone disses TV guy. *long story* Tv guy likes to carry his tv around and harass girls. Jeff however identifies with tv guy and says he is reminded of his childhood where big groups used to diss him. He goes to library. I stay with group for awhile. Everyone thinks he is overreacting. I'm not so sure, but I didn't want to chase after him. Eventually I do go.
He is there happier. He is on the internet looking at stuff. I talk to him. He is still mad at Eliza. OH!!!!!!!!!! I didn't write what happened yesterday. *ok, I"m gonna try to make brief* Ok, yesterday, they were both flirting with each other but Jeff took it too far and Eliza moved right. And so did I. Later, he wanted to know why the harsh reaction and stuff. I let him know that Eliza is a BIG OL' flirt. That she's just a tease and she likes to see how far she can make someone like her. She is also seeing how faithful he was. I told him this, and how everyone thought he looked like a "typical male" when he was doing all that. So he felt bad and mad. Bad about doing that stuff cause he's with Avina. Mad cause what Eliza is. After, he kinda got out of me how the group thinks of him. *put it this way, that was a BAD move on my part*
Ok, back to today. He comes back from libary and moves far away from Eliza. She's like what's his deal. So after the tension, it was time to go. Me and JEff head for bus. He thanks me for showing me how people "really" are. He says he don't want to hang out with them anymore. So I go on about group dynamics and how there are in and outgroups. So he's listening when I say wrong thing. I tell him that his youth group does same thing. *BAD TINOZ, BAD* He starts to strongly defend them. As I'm pointing out flaws, he starts to go offensive on me. Tells me I'm too pessimistic and I expect perfection. All I was saying is that people put on different faces at different events. He didn't want to hear it. I continued though. *shakes head* He starts to go on ON how he's a good christian and stuff. *Mistake 1000* I tell him he's not that good of a christian. I say, "what do you do with your time, how much of your day is devoted to HIM" He's like, "I pray,read my bible, and attend church" I say, "But how much time does that add up to" So he tells me to stop and I somehow go on to talk about him not even knowing why he's a christian. *Mistake 1292* He gets off the bus mad at me. I ride back home.
I come home and study for a bit then call Megan. I tell her about this dilema I'm facing. Before the argument, Jeff said he wants just us to hang out together. *meaning don't hang out with the group* She wanted to know why. I kinda told her why. How I told him what others say about him and stuff and now its not the same. So then she starts to want to know what others say when she leaves. I almost start, but I stop myself. I just say, "Know people put on different faces for different people" So we talk a lil more and she has to get off and study.
So now I'm here, still no concrete advice from anyone. I was gonna talk to Eliza just for the heck of it. *but no* I think that wouldn't be good. I just want advice. *HINT* I know if I hang with group, Jeff will be alone in some corner. *literally, cause he said so* If I just hang with Jeff, I miss out on group. *also looks weird* ARGH! Why'd I have to go and screw this up. Well, in a few minutes, I'm gonna call Jeff, see if I could make amends for some of my many mistakes. That is all. ~END~