Today at school *college, I love saying that* was very different. Classes were canceled. We had a big ol' tribute to the people of New York. Was very sad. It actually was good for me, I got to feel ok about the sadness I had about it. When I got home I even was crying for a lil while. I was just thinking of all that happened, I was just staring at the tv and thinking bout the guy who was talking about how he found out his daughter was on board. Or the last phone call of a husband. Is weird, I try to pretend it all wasn't happening. I like try to deny these feeling, kinda like when I found out I had a tumor. I just didn't think about it and avoided the issue. Now that I did, I feel better about it.

Oh, forgot to talk about the tribute. It was a very good one. Had alot of speakers talking. Had alot of people talking about how we should be anti-war. As of now, I think I'm anti-war. Maybe I'll explain later, but right now I'm tired. Anyways, there was also alot of call to prayers. Was nice.

The rest of the day I spent basically in the room watching tv, then going on the couch to sleep. I was really tired. Woke up, watched a few video games then came on and chatted. That's about today. Oh yeah, got a job inquiry from DMV. They want me back. Is tempting, $2000 plus. But see, they're gonna have to work around my schedule. I'm not leaving college. Though I could really use the money. Is permanent too. That is all, May God be with all of us as we face an uncertain future.