Today was an ugly gloomy day. Anyways, I go off to college and go to my first class. After that, I go hang out in student center. That is where I see Jeff. He apologizes for saying my business to his girlfriend. I tell him that sorry doesn't quite cut it for betraying my trust. So I go off to the nearby store with Linsey and Eliza. There, they both tell me I should cut him loose as a friend. I tell them how that is easier said than done. *From best friend to not a friend at all, that is tough* So after coming back, I go to my second class.

As I get out of the class *after screwing up on that test* I see him there sitting and waiting for me. *in shock* He's like, "hey tino" I say, "what are you doing here?" Jeff says,"Came here to apologize" By then, I'm kinda freaked out that he was there. I got even more freaked out when he told me what he was gonna do. He was gonna go into that class and ask if it was the south gym. *just to get my attention* So we talk and he asks if I want to go eat lunch. We do. Things seem ok at that point.

He goes to class and I hang out. I'm there still debating what I should do about situation and stuff. He eventually comes back. So he starts to do his homework when I get sticker and move around toward his paper. He's like, "if you touch that paper, I will kick your ass" Not only that, but he gives me this CRAZY look. So I'm there in shock and gearing for a potential fight. So I'm there and he continues to stare at me. I'm thinking, OMG, am i gonna have to fight him? After some time, I start to tell him that if he ever threaten me again that I'd "light him up" I reminded him that I'm from alot rougher area than he is. He didn't say anything at that point. Donald was trying to defuse situation. Eventually, it got defused when Jeff asked for help on his math homework. *was very ockward* So after that, we head to his bus stop.

I reiterate the fact about threats. Apparently, he was just upset. *whatever* So were walking with Donald this time. We get to bus stop and Jeff starts to tell Donald how he feels "out of the loop" I guess he feels he don't fit in. Donald seemed unequipped as to how to respond to such deep feelings. I helped out. *since Donald motioned me to help out* So conversation goes from that to self esteem to youth group. We get off on good terms.

I head home. I get there and immediately hit the bed. I needed the nap. After that, eat, talk to my mom. I find out that she still hasn't got job but gots an interview tomorrow. *not much, just $10.75 an hour* Actually, that is more than the last few jobs she had. Usually she gets paid $8 an hour. Anyways, we talk and I find out some VERY bad news. Lorenzo *her abusive alcholic boyfriend* is getting out of jail. The person never showed up and testified against him. THIS IS CRAZY! They aren't even gonna deport him. *he is illegal alien* WHAT THE HELL?! They know he did it. He had weapon on him and they aren't gonna charge. THIS SUCKS!!! Anyways, I call Jeff.

We talk briefly. Mainly about that. Also talk about me being bitter about valentines day. Is one of my least favorite holidays. It just reminds me of what I don't and never had. Maybe one day will be looked at with favor. I would rant on and on about it, but you know what, that is nonsense. I'm not gonna waste your time and mines on it. ANyways, I'm off. Oh gee whiz, another notify person gone. WHY do they even show me that number? You know what, I don't care any more, you can all go where that notify person went. *Gosh, am I letting that get to me, I must be cranky* You know what, I'm gonna pray. Maybe show up at that bible study tomorrow. I dunno. Anyways, thanks for the kind advice yesterday people. That is all. ~END~