Another week, more stuff to write about. I guess I can start at Monday. I go on campus and sit with the usual morning crew. I then decide to ask Candace why she asked Donald how I was. *she called him over the weekend* I then ask her why she can't call me up and talk to me if she wants to know stuff about me. I continue to grill her and eventually she starts nearly crying. *i'm thinking, omg, maybe I went too far* I then don't even have time to talk because I have 11 o'clock class.

After class, I look to talk to her but I can't find her. I then decide since my classes are done and it was my day off that I should go home. I do and I kill the day playing video games.

Tuesday comes and after my classes, I take a nap in the student center. *i was tired from chatting to late I think* I eventually wake up and hang with Donald for a lil bit. Since he is kinda boring, I look for Eliza. I find her and she is with April.

I sit there for awhile and we kinda talk about nothing much. Eliza does main talking, something about her allergies and how she wants to leave with this guy Pedro. She eventually does. I stay at table and Danielle eventually walks by. SHe sits there and we talk. We then go to student center. *more cooler* We basically talk again about nothing and then she has class. I walk her to her class and we talk about something. *argh, can't remember, but was comforting* I leave and see one of Ray's friends, Lawerence. He asks how I"m doing and invites me to church. After telling him I work on weekends, he asks if I want to do bible study. I tell him sure. *though probaly won't ever get around to doing it* He gives me his number. I give him mines. *I doubt he'll ever call me* I then get ready to go to work. Eventually I go and I arrive.

While there, I start to realize that I get really depressed in there. I think it is because I am alone in the leather shop and none of the co-workers ever comes by and talks. I do have customers, but I can't really chit chat to them. They just want to find a coat and leave. So I just kill time sometimes by listening to the lame music they have there. Ever now and then a tight love song will come on, but then it reminds me that I don't have anyone that feels like that towards me and all this nonsense. *there is Michelle, but she online and its not the same as having someone there for you*

Wednesday comes and I am nearly late for class. I do get there and get another stellar perfect on psych quiz. *i forgot to add that, I been aceing those tests* After class, I see Candace in student center. Surprisingly, she acts as if nothing happening. I go with it and we talk as we normally did in the past. Eventually, I finish up my other class and get out.

I see Ayumi while I'm with Donald and decide to go hang out with her. *i'm really bored to want to hang with her* We go and we eventually find this kinda hidden table. Its me, DOnald, AYumi, Romero, this asian guy named Steve and this mexican chick named Elle. We talk and for the first time I decided just pretend to be one of them and talk about totally stupid things. *alot of it having to do with sex and partying* After they start talking about dog collars and I catch on, Ayumi wonders how I caught on to what they were talking about. *is a BDSM thing* After awhile of talking about all that, I think they all thought I was alot different then I presented self to be in past. Especially Ayumi, she said, "Tino, you not as innocent as I thought you were" I laugh. I eventually have to go to work though. I leave.

I get to work and more of the same boring depressing crap. Try not to think about it, but its hard when you have so much free time to do so. After one of my breaks, my supervisor calls me and asks me when is the earliest I can come in. I tell her 1PM. SHe asks if I can please do full time until she finds someone to fill spot. I tell her ok. *i need the money* After 4 and a half of the slowest hours of my life, I get home and chat.

I chat to Michelle and after telling her about my day, she goes on about other stuff. I kinda told her she needed to be more comforting and stuff. She apologizes. *realize after that maybe I was tripping a lil* I get off net at like 1:30 AM and then go to sleep.

Well, here I am, doing entry following day. Missed bible study and will probaly miss church thing Eliza wanted me to go to. *sigh* I'm really far from God, only right now am I thinking of him. *been awhile* I can't seem to remember to focus on him or do his will. I'm scared in a way because I have been so self-focused. I feel like I can't break this stupid cycle.

On another subject, will get paid Friday. Breakdown of where money will go, pills, braces, bus pass, food, maybe $15 after all that on self. $15 measly self bucks. THough i can't complain too much, my mom and grandma of all people have helped me here and there. Maybe I should give them more reconition. Both have given me bus money all this week. 3 times money to eat lunch. *which ended up being dinner* In any event, that is all for right now. ~END~