Today I thought I would have nothing to write about until I started chatting to my friend Danielle. *what happened your thinking* I decided to give her the url to this diary. *yup, yet another person knowing about my diary* How did it come up and why, well, let me explain.

Me and her were chatting like I said when another one of my friends pmed me. So I was chatting to both when I accidently put the following in Danielle's window, "You know the address already" My other friend was asking again for the url for the diary. Anyways, Danielle was like, "the address for what?" I laughed and told her it was for someone else, that I had typed that in the wrong window. She then asked, what does it go to. I told her nothing. She then asked if it was for porn. I was like, NO!. So then I decide to tell her that it was for my online diary. She was like, "deep man" So I tell a few things about it not really sure if I should tell her or not. That is when she started tell me how she would feel honured if I showed her and she'd be non-judgemental. I think after she typed she has an open mind I put the url for her. While on with her, she somehow got to the tumor story, and said I should write a book. I smiled and told her no one would buy it. *isn't like there aren't 20,000 other diaries out there* She said she would. *Yeah, that's one sale* Isn't like I haven't thought about it. Thing is, I'd have to be wildly successful then it'd have the hollywood ending all love. *you know, the classic overcoming adversity stuff* Anyways, after a lil more chatting, she has things to do and has to get off. *I wanted to chat longer but life called her away, so I understand*

Now here I am rethinking it all. I mean, I hope I don't live to regret this. All it takes is for her to get mad enough and just tell someone. Then again, as she has said, she'd never. *then again, never say never* She doesn't seem like type that would be spiteful and mean. Well, I dunno. Probaly a very risky move but I guess I want the payoff of the risky move which is someone that understands me and someone that is even interested in me. Though I'm not even sure what her understanding me will bring. Sure won't be a relationship, she's engaged. Best friend? Possibly. Though what worries me is the fact that she has access to my secrets yet I don't know much about her. When I told Jeff, I knew about him. Well, what is done is done right?

Besides all that, day was pretty forgetable. Was online and chatted, hung out with lil bro and sis. Argued with my mom. Pretty basic stuff really. Had bad dreams again. *writing this day after* My head keeps bringing up the things I like to push to the back of my head. *like what?* Just me viewing self negative again. I have serveral complexs. I don't like anything about myself. Anyways, that is all. ~end~