It's really hard for me to really know what part of the stuff I know is error. Is it the evolution part? The Jesus part? Could they both be right? Neither right? I try so hard to pick a defitive answer. I want to be on the right side. For the most part, I think, there has to be a God. I highly doubt the whole random molecues thing. They couldn't possibly think ahead for thier own collective best interest. Yet, science has proved alot that had it not been for science, we would've been back in old technology. Anyways, this seems to be a repeating theme in my head. Always strikes me in my free time. Is this all life is? Can't be. There has to be a purpose, right? Should I live just to achieve great stuff for myself, or do I live by the rules of what I think came from God. Same crap, I should just look at old comments. Anyways, that is what has been on my mind. ALso other stuff.
I wondered today how rabbitgoddess would take my comment. I also wondered if Kaliko was ok. I also thought about if I should post my class assignment. If you haven't noticed by now, I decided to put it. It's an odd assignment for a critical thinking class. It's about my life. 1 Page with specific questions asked of me. I was going to edit cities and stuff but decided not to. Parts that are false I will put in bold.
My preschool memories are the hardest ones to retrieve. Yet, there are things I do remember. I remember living in San Francisco. The house we lived in was small and the only fun things in there were my toys. I had toys from the show, The Thunder Cats. When my family went out, we all liked going to Pier 39.Though my favorite place to go was the nearby park. My brother Ricky, liked going to the Exploratorium. He was my only sibling at the time. I wished I had pets but my dad didn't allow us to have one. I did have a favorite playmate though. His name was Joey and he liked to color on walls. My most vivid memory is when he colored on the wall at our preschool and the teacher yelled at him. My best experience was when I waited in line with my mom and dad to get the newest Thunder Cat toy. My worst experience is when my dad whooped me after he thought I took his money. The weirdest thing I did was try to go inside the T.V. I thought if I put my finger inside the hole where the antenna was that I would enter the T.V. and live in that world.
In my grade school years, I remember moving from San Francisco to Sacramento. My clearest memory involves my first day of school there. It was so much warmer than San Francisco and I didn't know anyone. I cried in class that day and the teacher asked what was wrong. I was sad because I had no friends and there was only a ball wall at the school and no playground. She ended up giving out extra credit for anyone who played with me. As a result, I got to know a lot of people. Mrs. Cooper, the teacher, turned out to be my favorite teacher. My favorite subject was science. In second grade, I ended up getting my least favorite teacher, Ms Rolle. She would always put me in the corner for talking. In school, I was praised nothing, despite the fact I was doing well in my classes. Though I was still ok because I had my best friend Raymond. Him and I liked to pretend we were video game characters, like Link from the video game, Legend of Zelda. The stupidest thing I did was throwing a rock at a window because I thought I'd show my brother that I wasn¡¯t a scary cat. As for my mom, she thought I was an innocent little kid, but I seen myself as a kid who did a lot of bad things.
My junior high and high school years was my least favorite time. I tried liqour and weed. As for sex, I had a chance to but decided to stick to my belief of sex after marriage. My mom allowed me to do whatever and she was busy hanging out with her friends during her free time. She saw me as a grown man that should be able to sustain himself. I couldn't because I didn't like the concept of working at a fast food restaurant or at the mall folding clothes. I wanted to be a prosecutor. As for the friends, I didn't have that many. I think the reason is because we moved a lot. I attended two middle schools and four high schools. I also think its because I became obese and not too many teens like to hang with fat people. I did have my friend Raymond in one of those high schools, but he was very detached and becoming a different person. The other people I knew called me boring and tended to like to be around their friends that always did drugs. As for the positive stuff, I liked to play my video games. I loved them and computer stuff. By the time I got to my junior year in high school, that's all I'd do with my time. My only adventure I had was going on this long hike to see some stream and picnic. The most embarrassing thing I did was fart really loud in class during a test. The guy next to me announced it to the whole class. They all groaned and looked at me like I was nasty.
In my adult years, a lot changed for me. I finally got my first job as a web designer/ administrative assistant. While that job didn't last long, my job at the DMV did. I was a service assistant and liked the money it paid. I thought I could settle for this and I was somewhat satisfied with the direction of my life. That all changed when I was diagnosed with a brain tumor. The doctors eventually removed most of it but my sense of self changed radically. I felt like I had a second chance at life and I didn't want to end up working at the DMV forever. So, I decided I wanted to have a career and to get that I had to attend college. I didn't have any friends at the time I started but that quickly changed. Soon, the pizza place near the college became our hang out spot. We had fun playing air hockey there. I still play video games and go online when I am by myself. Though I don't have that much time for that since I met my fiancee. She made me feel like an adult when we first had sex together. We were each other's firsts. The ideas that turned me on were the concepts of Christianity and psychology. As for my family, it has grown. I now have a little sister and a little brother. My mom and I don't get along very well. As for my dad, I haven't seen or talked to him since I moved from San Francisco. I don't know if he's dead or alive. My future goals include
finding my dad and attending either UCLA, UC Davis or UC San Diego. My major is psychology. My dream is to be a clinical psychologist that really helps people solve their problems and makes them happy. I also hope that I will have enough to help those in other countries that are in need of assistance.
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I ofcourse could've added alot more, but that is not what was requested from the assignment. I tried to stick to postive stuff and not be all depressing because I just knew we would have to share it. *and did have to share it in groups* The teacher said in class that the biography is about understanding the lens through which you see society from. *apprently, we all wear colored lens* I could understand why I see things the way I do when I think about the life I've been through. Well, mostly. As for the colleges listed, I'm almost a lock for UC Davis. I'm hoping that this semester I could get a 3.5 again. That would lock UC D and make me competitive for UC San Diego. If I achieve good grades in the Fall semester taking the tough classes like Physics, Chemistry, Pre-Calculus and upper level psych classes, I will stay longer and try to get all the classes necessary for me to transfer. Michelle is a couple steps ahead. She has better GPA, she is in calculus, Chem 400 *second year of chem* and taking my Critical thinking class as well. So she has an easier road than me.
Would love to make it to UCLA. One of the top Psychology schools in the nation. Instant name reconition too. So hard though. I would have to spend so much extra time in college. Though if I can, I will try. My future rides on this. *I wonder if I have the math skills to pass Calculus 2* Anyways, to much rambling and thinking ahead. I just need to stay focused and stop trying to worry about transfering all over the place. That is all. ~END~
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