Today started out relativly ok. Woke up and took a shower. I got ready to go to mall with lil bro and sis. I had promised them that I'd take them there and they could get a few things. So after some preparing, we go.

While there, we look around, get some beads for my lil sis, some gak toy for lil bro and eat there. It was pretty nice. Got to talk to them about nonsense and joke around. The kind of stuff only children wish they could do with siblings. *thinks about friends with no siblings* Was nice, we eventually go back home.

Here at home, it is raining and i'm in the house. A pleasent break from the warm temputures of just a week ago. So i come online and do LOTS of chatting. Things seem to be going fine until my big bro calls from his garage. He asks for my mom, i look and find out that she isn't here. I tell him and he is anxious and sick. I ask him what is wrong. He tells me that he feels like his lungs are tightening up and he just doesn't feel right. Says his ashma inhaler just isn't doing anything. He wants to go to hospital but doesn't have any coverage. He wants to use mines but I tell him that theyd end up giving him my pills and they would find out he's not me. *besides, that can't be legal* So I show some concern, then get off the phone with him.

I tell my mom when she gets back about my bro. She says she knows and she leant him the car to go. She says he thinks he has ammonia. *however you spell it* I dunno. I am awaiting word of what really happened as we speak.

As for me, i'm feeling ok. A lil too ok, i am not as concerned as I should be. I guess some of my resentment for him is still in me. I hope nothing happens to him. If it does, i think i will be sad. I dunno. Well, not sure what else to say but pray for him if you do pray. If not, then, i guess condolenscences or whatever is fine. If you want. Anyways, that is all I have to say for right now. Maybe later when I find out what is wrong I will put a new entry. That is all. ~END~