Ok, first time I made up a word in my entry title. LOL, first time for everything right? Anyways, its really late but I decided to do an entry despite the time.

Ok, the reason for the title. *ok, I better think of one fast, I can hear people clicking out of here already, LOL, jk* Ok, I have my own lil theory on that word I made up. Ok, a superchristian is someone who believes in God and Jesus and actually lives a life that is christian. *good example, most pastors at most churches and that one guy that will give you a ride despite him living 20 miles out of his way* THem are the people that go to all the lil prayer meetings, that read their bible diligently, that do good just because their that type of person. *ok your thinking, what's your point* Ok, my point, I want to be one of those people. At first, I thought I could be one if I tried hard enough. That obviously failed *read entries 1-previous entry* Ok, but why be like that. Reasons are two-fold, one to better serve GOD. Second and probaly more important to me, is to be happy.

God can provide that happiness. I once was a "superchristian". I was a generally happy person that would turn to God *not myself or close friends* for help and joy. He would always get me through it. Not sure why I forgot about this side. Think it has to do with what happened after summer camp. *long story, I don't feel like explaining, is in an entry way back there* Those events lead me down the wrong path. THen the tumor brought the onset of this depression that has been bugging me. *ok tino, why this all right now?* Well, got into an argument with JEff. I was VERY mad at him. I laid on my bed and thought about mean stuff I could say to him tomorrow. That is when I realized that I finally went overboard. I thought, Why was I planning on hurting my best friend's feelings? What kind of person have I turned to? Whatever happenened to the old me? So I thought about it. THen the phrase superchristan popped in my head. *the term that I only used when I attended church every week and did stuff outside of church* I thought, wow, I'm lightyears from that. Then, almost like in a movie, I decided to go into prayer. I did. I asked for forgiveness of sins and talked to God. There I realized that I'm just seconds away from that person. All I have to do is let God handle the load. *either God said that, or the other side of my brain that just comes up with intelligent thoughts, ok, that's my non-believing part of me thinking aloud* Anyways, I decided to call Jeff and apologize for hanging up the phone on him. :) He was happy I apologized. So was I.

The point of all these points? Um... Rely on God, he will help. Don't and, you probaly will either be miserable or have fake worldly happiness. While fake worldly happiness sounds fun, it is only temporary. Anyways, I'm off, I feel happy. I dunno. Maybe I am gonna be back the way I was. Well, I wrote stuff like this before only to fall flat on my face. I can only pray that I stay faithful and within his light. Anyways, I'm off. VERY TIRED. ~END~