*Takes deep breath* What a rollercoaster of emotions today. Starts pretty cool. Make Jeff's cd, eat some cereal, head to college. While walking, I see bus roll by. ARGH!!!! WAS EARLY! I swear, never early when I want it to be. Anyways, I finally arrive on campus.

On campus, I see none other than Ray. *former best friend* I ask him where he was going, he said home. I asked him to stay. He said he wanted to go home and sleep. *that lil prick rather sleep than to hang with me* Oh, but he sure doesn't forget to ask me to make him a cd. HUH! He ain't getting nothing from me. He goes to his bus, I go to student center. There, I see Jeff and others. Jeff got Avina her gifts. *she got him gifts too* Honestly, I was a bit jealous, cause Candace and Suzanne also had gifts. I had nothing. Plus no one is gonna get me nothing either. N-E-WAYZ, Megan comes in there. Asks me to help her on net. I go with her.

I'm there and she starts up on her entry and stuff. Eventually i head to class only to find it was cancelled. Go back in there and she is still typing. She does most of talking. Is mainly about what she will put in diary. She has lots of cool stories. Also, asked how she could type it at home, save on floopy. Oh, scary moment, I was on another computer for a minute when Eliza showed up. I was on my diary, luckily I had xed it out before she seen. She was actin all snobby. ARGH, she gets on my nerves sometimes. She was there not to talk to me, but some black dude next to me. Seemed like she was flirting. *typical of her to do that, probaly trying to get me jealous, or maybe she's just like that, not quite sure* Log off there talk more with megan, eventually we get off after having hecka hard time designing her site. She goes to class. I go quickly to student center.

There I find Candace, Suzanne, Awilda, Raymond, and wayne. I ask how everyone is and stuff. They ask me if me and Megan had GOOD TIME. I told them it wasn't even like that. We just were on internet. They then tell me Jeff was really worried about me and was looking for me. Eventually he walks in. He is glad to see me. We take Avina to her class again then go walk to bus.

While walking, he asks where I was and stuff. I told him. He too felt he wanted to know what was up with me and Megan. *like it is their business, but i tell him* I also tell him not to read my diary any more. *reason, may post megan's diary link on here, i didn't use that as reason though* I told him i wanted it to be private, he tells me he hasn't even read. *PHEW* Says he can respect me wanting privacy. I then talk to him about why he was worried about me. Says he just cares. *not used to a friend actually wondering where I am and if I'm ok* Eventually he gets off. I go to pizza place, eat, go home.

THere, I sleep. Wake up and end up arguing with my mom. Was a BIG fight. I kept telling her that I'm tired of her being so insensitive and how much she has screwed up my life. She tells me she is sorry, however i need to move on. *Went on for about hour, same points* I eventually break it off and go in my room* There, I come on internet to chat and then type this entry.

As for tomorrow, hmm. Should be boring, Jeff won't be there, I think Megan will be. Oh wait, got bible study, that should be ok. Though I feel like a hypocrite going there sometimes. Is like, i go there for all wrong reasons. I leave just to return to who I was when I stepped in. I dunno. It's like I want to be a christian in a way, but in a sense I don't. Hard to explain. Ok, let me try, I know its good, and most people end up happy when they do end up following and stuff. Just, so many rules to follow. Also seems like life would be boring as one. I still want to have fun. Hmmmmm. With that, i'll close. Till tomorrow. BYE