Dear Diary,

Well, I'm happy to report that I did get over it and moved on. Part that helped is that my mom actually made me some pancakes and sauages. *in shock* Its a rare thing when my mom actually does something like that. VERY rare. Good though. I ate and talked to my mom about it *another rare thing* My mom also told me not to dwell and focus on what I do have. *is a good idea, hopefully it can stick, wonder how many times that has been told to me?*

Rest of day kinda flew by. Watched tv, and got to eat dinner when my mom brought some crazy bread. *she used lil bro's dad's car* He was VERY drunk and actually let her drive it. I know I'd never let my mom drive a newer mitsubishi eclipise. Like RIGHT after that, big bro comes for money. We drive to bank. I get money out. *is very empty now* I told him he BETTER pay me tomorrow or i'd go psyco on him. He laughed, agreed. So were driving in his friend's truck to pick up the screen tv. We get there, is nice lil house. Has a Mercedes Benz outside and in good area. I got a lil jealous, then shook it off. The tv is big. Cost alot. I overheard my big bro, was $1100. *he didn't want to tell me price* Also overheard what he gets per check. $1200 every 2 weeks after commision and hourly wages. NO WONDER he has money. ANyways, we load truck with screen tv standing up. I guess you can't put it on its side. While on the freeway, we pullover and have big bro go in back of truck and hold it so it won't tip over.

WHile in the car, I thought, what if it tipped over. I couldn't help but feel bad for big bro. I almost wanted to feel bad if something happened, but its not in my heart to think like that. I kept finding myself hoping everything would be ok. We got home, put it in his garage. LOL, a screen tv in a garage. I watched golden globes on there. TV IS NICE!

I go in house and go in my room. There, come on computer, play a few online games and then this entry. Speaking of that, I got to set my sleeping pattern. What am I doing up so late?! Its 2 AM, college starts tuesday. I got to go, thanks for comments. That is all. ~END~