After answering comments, I asked my big brother, why would he want to see my dad again. First he said, why not. SO I told why I didn't. He said, he would like to see him again, now that he ain't on crack. He says he had some good memories with him. Like waiting at the store to get the first Voltron. My brother says I was there too, and is surprised I don't remember. I told him, if he's locked up, he couldn't have changed that much. My brother said that he isn't scared of him and that they could exchange memories together. ANd, get this, he wants to do it on Ricki Lake. I said, you could go, I'm staying. He says I should give him a second chance and what not. After that, I got bored of the conversation and went in my room.

After that conversation, I'm still confused as to why he has this urge to meet him. Well, all I know is that the dad he remembers ain't the dad I remember. As for forgiveness, I have decided that if he apologizes, then I'll forgive him. Well, maybe God will give me the heart to do it before then. We'll see.