UGH, have to REWRITE, lost the entry by clicking wrong thing, anyways! *was almost done too* Ok, the last few days have been pretty good. Doing things I should be doing. Well, gonna start on Tuesday and cover Wednesday as well.

Tuesday was nice. Was on the computer sweating when Ray called me. He and Rakish were gonna seen Bourne Identity and wanted me to go. SO I go. Seen it, was pretty good. After that, we decided to go see Minority Report. That was also pretty good. Actually, better than Bourne ID. Steven Spielberg is a Genuis if you didn't already know. If you like good complex movies that make you think when you leave the theater, this is the movie for you. Anyways, after that, we go to my house, play the playstation , then they got to go. I then proceed to go online.

While online, I see Nicole *aka Michelle* and Niels on. We chat. Its cool chatting with them since they care and know so much about me. Scary too though, cause I'm starting to actually really care for them. Like if I didn't see them online for awhile, I actually miss them. LOL, I grow so attached to people. Its weird, I actually wanna meet them. And thing is, Nicole isn't too far from here. I may just try to make it happen this year or next. I think it'd be really cool. Though i dunno if i'd want to meet her cause I may start to like her more than just friends and then i'd have to come back up. Hmmm, sometimes I think I already like her as more than just friends, but that's prob cause I just need a gf. I dunno. ANyways, time to write about Wednesday.

Wednesday was also good. Got to go swimming with lil bro, lil sis, and my nephew Anthony. Was fun, taught lil bro and sis how to improve swimming technique. Good exercise too. After that, we come home and I go online. As I do, I see Alex *from the college* and Awilda come online. SO I chat with both. Talk to alex about computers, Awilda about hanging out. So while that is happening, Eliza pops online. She somehow gets me to go over there. So after awhile, I get ready to go over her apartments and swim.

I go and get there around 9PM. We're swimming and its nice and warm. Was really nice, though this bratty lil girls were in there. Eliza wanted them to leave so she could skinny dip. Eventually, they did leave but she didn't skinny dip. Closest she got was to swimming in thong and this top of hers. :) Yup, she likes her body. *not just an observation, she says it alot* Which is cool for me cause obviously I get to see her. LOL. And she isn't shy about it at all. I mean, she even showed me her butt to prove she had no cellulite. *lucky her huh* Also, she had wrapped her legs around me and stuff. :) She's very sexual. Hard for me to control self when she does that though. SOmetimes i don't know why i control self. I guess I try to stay "decent" though i just end up holding back and being uptight alot. Like later on, she had Hotel California on and was dancing and I just stood there and didn't move around cause I didn't wanna look dumb and I hold back. SHe noticed, she's like, I'm more of a free spirit than you. I didn't say anything, cause its true. ANyways, I stay night there.

I didn't sleep much actually. I keep thinking about alot of stuff. Alot of my issues are because I usually don't have healthy interactions. I'm glad for now i do.

Oh, wanted to address my commentors. To kaliko, I wanted to say wow. Sometimes I wonder if you know me and my motivations better than I do. Thanks though for the advice and hope things go well with the ISP. TO Jenjea, thanks also. Trust me, you may not think it but you and kaliko's comments be circling my mind at night. LOL. Its weird. I know. As to Denni, aka lifelessordinary, I think your right. I think it has dropped off cause I don't read other diaries like I should. I mean, I want them to care about me and read me and all this bull, yet I don't do same. *sigh* Odd double standards I hold. Part of self-absorbtion I've got into recently. I expect world to do all these things for me, but then when its my turn, I don't wanna recipricate the love back. *double standard indeed* Something I do wanna work on. *note to self, World does not rotate around you* Sad I have to say that, I should just do it. ANd people, its not just you I do this to, just ask God, I do same to him. I say, GOD, do this for me. He does in his time, then he asks me to do something. That is when I chose to do my own thing and then when I'm in need, I'm like, "hey god, I need you again" That is so wrong. I'm so wrong. *sigh* So much to fix. One day at a time Tino, one day at a time.

Ok, time to hop off the putdown express. That is all, thanks all and you have nice days and stuff. Bye.