Gee, never thought I'd be hiding anything from my own diary. What is it? Well, let me tell ya. I haven't been taking my pills again. *hormone ones* ANd you know what, Just as I predicted, I feel good. *as in mental health wise* I stopped since Thursday night. I'm thinking that maybe them pills are what is making me feel so down. I looked back through my diary and noticed last time I stopped taking my pills I also went from sad to ok. So, what exactly do them pills do, well supposely they fight tumor, give me t4, hydrocortisone, reduce prolactin, and give me some thyroid hormone. Supposely my body needs all this stuff. Though when I take the pills, I have all kinds of side effects. SO I'm really torn between helping body and just letting myself enjoy freedom from pills!

Ok, time for rest of day. Got up *duh*, ate, watched some tv. Usual sunday right? Go on computer, play the sims. While playing, I get told that Alberto is here. *!!!!!!!* Bible study! FORGOT! Was a lil annoyed he came actually, but I went. Enjoyed going I must say. Though I very much disagreed on how they viewed Revelation. After that, got ride from Alberto to Wal*Mart. There, I got an expansion for some sweets and some other stuff. :) After, we head to Carl's Jr, the to Pizza hut, then back again to carls jr. *we were undecided* Eat, I get dropped off after.

Come home to find nephew here. *he is 8* You'd think big bro would watch him and hang out with him, NO!!!! Not him. ANyways, lil bro and sis were hanging with him. I did too. Though I got him upset when I got him in full nelson. *he wanted out, I told him to say surrender, he didn't* So he starts crying in corner, I'm like, I was playing. Later, I find out he was crying for another reason. *he cryed for like 10 mins in corner* My mom said he was sad that he had to move from Washington. *he's moved alot already* Though I'm not sure how getting out of full nelson brings up sadness about moving. I guess good thing is he is moving back in this area. :) we will see him more. Which is good. He had to leave so soon. :( At 9. Was only here for a few hours.

After that, got lil bro and sis to sleep. House quieted down. I eat dinner, come on computer. Though my mind is on wheter my mom will really get arrested tomorrow. Is a holiday, would they really come? Who will give grandma shots for her diabetes. *I don't know how* DINNER? We will be ok, enough adults here, still, she will be sorely missed if she does have to go in for a week straight. Tomorrow will also be interesting in the fact I will again probaly take pills. I want to see if I feel different. I want to know if it really is pills making me depressed. *before this was hard for me to believe pills could modify behavior* Oh, I want to say thanks for all nice comments on yesterday's entry. :) I did feel better today. And I want to say HI to my newest notify person. *waves* Well, its really late, no one is on to chat either. SO I'm off. Till tomorrow.