THe mood in the house is VERY sad. My grandma is in the hospital with some crazy thing called mucormycosis or something like that. click
It is very deadly. Its some kind of fungus. She only has a 25% chance of living. RIght now, they already took off her nose, eye, and some other facial features in order to access the fungus. It is spreading fast. Faster than the surgeons can get to it. The docs have asked if we wanted her continue with trying to save her. I dunno. I'm not making the decision. I can't. I can't say "let her die" Then again, if she lives, she'll be horribly sad. Missing an eye and having no nose and other stuff. Not only that, but she'll have to be on dialysis. Also she has half a kidney as is and the stuff thier giving her to treat the fungus is ruining that. SO she might die anyways.

Its gonna alot harder without her. No one to stay home with my lil bro and sis. The $300 she puts in on rent. The nice stuff she does will probaly be most missed. It wasn't alot because she mainly stayed in her room, but when she did do stuff, it was nice.

Was gonna write about other stuff, but right now, that stuff isn't important. i'm not totally depressed but I am sad. I kinda resent that i don't have more feelings for her. I know if it was just about anyone else in the family i'd be devasted. I dunno. I hope she goes to heaven. I really do. Anyways, pray if u do for her please. And if not, um, wish the best. That is all....