Today started with me getting ready to go to the dentist to get my braces tighten. *oh joy* I get dropped off by my mom and arrive there, sign in and wait. Seemed like I waited longer than 15 minutes. If you don't know by now, I hate dentists. Its like the only phobia I think I have. Its weird, I could see myself sky diving and whitewater rafting but going to that office gets me various nervous. Anyways, I go in. This time, dentist was much happier about my dental hygeine. She asks me what color I want on my bands and I say blue, she asks what kind, I say whatever kind. She brings them and puts them in. I complain about my sore jaw and they say take advil. *I knew that already* Eventually I leave.

I get home and kill time at neopets.com. I have a pet there I mess with since I have nothing better. I see Jeff's friend Matt online, but he is apprantly busy. I then decide to call Jeff. He is back from Baja California. *been back since Saturday* I tell him that his friend avoided me and so has he. I mean, in my opinion, it seems like he has been avoiding me a lil. Anyways, we get a lil into it cause I tell him," I don't want to anyone anymore cause all they do is hurt you. Sometimes I wish everyone would just go to hell" He was like,"even me" I tell him everyone. So after starting on the phone really happy, he is liked dragged down into my miserable world, and he is nearly in tears. I hear the change in his voice and realize that maybe I'm letting too much of my inner negativity out on him. SO I pull back and try to lighten up. He eventually tries to get me a ride out to his place. *the reason, he wanted to prove he wants to hang with me* I kinda thought that was cool. We then kinda patch things up and were laughing. We then call Donald on 3-way.

Donald basically gets drowned out by me and Jeff. It seemed like me and Jeff were like best friends again. It was really odd. Me and Jeff were like totally on the same page while Donald wasn't sure what we were talking about half the time. After like 3 or 4 hours, we have to get off the phone because All our phones were dying.

I'm glad it turned out ok. I almost pushed Jeff to far away with all my negative energy. I don't know why he let me get that comfortable with him. Though I must admit, after that, I've felt great ever since. Not only that, but he also made me laugh several times. He knows me well. He even made a few observations on me that only someone that knows me good in person can make. Anyways, I'm just about happy. :) That is all, ~END~