Well, its been yet another long while since I last wrote. I regret not writing, I enjoy expressing my thoughts and rereading them at later points in my life. ANyways, with that being said, time to write about my week.
Main things first. Michelle IS moving here, despite several unnamed friends online and offline both kinda trying to sway me the other direction. *as in not having her move here* I admit, it is emotionally risky. Though with risky things come potential great rewards. So with that being said, she WILL be here by Friday. *so soon, oh my* Its already planned, she will be coming on SWA and arriving here where I live at 10:40.
I am very stoked about it for the most part. There is a tiny grain of doubt, but I have decided to dismiss it for now. I mean, there is no telling if she'll really come, but I'm chancing it. Not only that but so is she. Actually, I think her more than me, she has alot more to lose if this all doesn't work out. Wow, trippy, never thought I'd meet someone from online, much less have them live with me.
The next thing I wanted to cover is the fact that my mom is still depressed about her mom *my grandma* dying. Its really weird, on one hand, its sad because she isn't happy and she's very anxious. On the other hand, she has decided to become very protective over me, my lil bro and sis. Call me weird but I like knowing my mom cares. Its something I haven't got the privledge to see in a long time. Personally, I think most people take for granted what they got. Anyways, I am quietly hoping its a wake up call for her to treasure every moment and make her and our life better. Maybe she'll even stop drinking. I heard her say she wanted to quit. I know I should pray about it but I probaly won't. Its sad state of affairs, I mean, God gives me stuff I been wanting yet I worship less and follow less. I'm so ungrateful.
Onto more trivial matters. Got mad/hurt at Donald today. It happened when he said that he got April a gift. *his lil pathetic crush* I then asked him what he was gonna get me. He said, " THe rest of you guys get candycanes" I then look at him. I then say ," SO your just gonna get me a candycane? That's messed up, I thought we were cool with each other" He then tells me, "OK OK, I'll GET YOU SOMETHING, OK! You happy?" I then tell him, "NEVERMIND, I didn't want to force you into getting me a gift via guilt trip" A friend of his then walks up, I walk off. I go to the study hall. I'm safe there listening to my sad music when he comes over after about 45 minutes. *he was looking for me* He then tells me if I really want something he'll get it. I tell him he don't realize the point. He asks me what the point is. I tell him that its him doing it volunteerily because I'm his good friend and thought of him on his birthday even though he didn't on my birthday. *not to mention the times I've treated him* He then says, " I just want to hang out and have things as they were" I tell him, "ok, if that is how it is, fine, I'm gonna pretend for the moment this didn't happen, but things have changed" I then go to the student center. We hang out and see April and Rosie. We talk, she gives us cards. April then talks about getting Donald a gift. I then say, " What about me, Don't I get one" *in a sarcastic tone of voice, though Donald mumbles oh boy* SHe tells me I live to far away. I tell her don't let distance be the problem, I'll pick up my gift. She then ignores me and talks to ROsie and Donald. Rosie talks about a gift exchange. I personally don't like it, it seems too impersonal. So anyways, they eventually leave. I put on my headphones and ignore Donald. He tries several times for attention but it wasn't gonna work. Eventually, I leave and go to work.
Nothing much at work, same depressing mode. Not that anyone could see it, just I feel it. I'm so unhappy there. I have maybe one friend in this girl named Kiki and that's about it. Though it sucks because I only see co-workers when I enter or leave the leather shop. I only have stupid customers to talk to. Most of which don't want to be interrupted. The other part like to talk, but ofcourse its more superficial than answers to co-workers how it's going. *lol, if I really told them how it was going, I'd probaly cry somewhere in the process* Anyways, I survive the grueling hours they have me working. *35 hours this week, no days off on the weekends* Last week, only had one day off. *ANGER* So stressed, have school then 35 hours of this weekly, very stressful.
Hmm, there was more stuff I wanted to include. *argh* Lemme think here. Ok, I know. My lil bro and sis, they are being very picky for the holiday. My lil sister expects this digial camcord *digital blue* and some cd player. Not to mention clothes. I dunno how she excepts us to do this while we're kinda strugglin. I tell her sometimes, but she don't get it. It's frustrating. It's like, she should be happpy getting anything. Ain't like I got much. *not that I'm trying to put the pity song on, but its true* My lil bro wants $100 worth of YuGiOH cards. Plus other gifts. Pricey. Especially when that money should be spent on more primary needs and concerns like more food and better place to live. *ARGH* I may put my foot down. Yeah I may be viewed as a grinch to them but there are more important things!!! I dunno.
Last thing, Lorenzo is being a jerk again. Still cussing at my mom and telling her she has a BOTA MADRE *in spanish, it means BITCH MOM* SO disrespectful. The wound is still fresh for my mom. I think it was just yesterday I almost beat him up. How dare he talk about my recently dead grandma.
As for the other psyco here, My bro rick has been surprisingly nice. Though we still jaw at each other. His niceness is the kind where he'll get or do something for you but brag and hold over your head. I mean, its cool that he is doing a lil nice instead of being a jerk and being the way he was when I was little. Still, its not excusable.
Well, that's about it at the moment. If I can find this one paticular article that was written in the "free" newspaper around here, I'll send the URL to my notify people. ITs about my neighborhood, and caught my interest since it talks about alot of what goes on here, and the store is one I have passed by many times. Anyways, that is all. Thanks for the advice people's, God be with you.