Me and Michelle have been alright. We're good today but a few days ago we had a major fight. I had given her my password for DD because she insisted and she already had my email password. She never got a chance to login but while we were fighting and I tryed to walk away from an argument, she threatened to delete all my entries. That led to me stopping her and had to change that password. So she logged into my email and had changed it from there. I then had to go back to my email, change that password and change the password again. I was very pissed off about that and wrote a long entry about the details of our argument. Then, as I was finishing up and the computer froze. The entry was lost.

That argument basically got me thinking that I am really tired of trying to help people. It seems to me that people tend to complain about problems but don't take steps in thier life to do something about it. Its really irritating to me. I hate hearing about problems that people can solve but then they're too emotionally weak to do so. I mean, atleast if I get tired of reading someone online, I could just change web pages and read a future entry. In real life, people like my mom just complain like crazy about the problems in thier lives. I try to give advice and they agree but then, they don't follow through. So I have definately decided not to get involved that much with other people's lives unless they overtly ask for my specfic advice. Plus, I think I don't want to be a typical psychologist. I couldn't stand just hearing people complain and be disordered. I don't want to be around disordered people. I finally fixed myself and feel as though I need to be around happy people with just normal problems.

Maybe I should be a behaviorist like Dr. Phil. He gives them the road map and then moves on to the next. They aren't meant to be there for years and years listening to every single problem that happens throughout thier life. I like to help but think it'd be best not being involved for long periods of time with very neurotic people. I hear that psychologist that deal with people like that have a hard time not taking those problems home. I dunno, just rethinking my path in life a little bit.

Not saying I get annoyed by reading you guys' problems. I see you guys as friends and you guys help me too. So that's different. So yeah........

Maybe I'll be online later. Part of the reason I haven't been on is ofcourse busy and Michelle thinks I chat online too much. I beg to differ however. I think I been on once in the last week. I haven't even been on long either. For some odd reason, Michelle has been getting jealous of me chatting online. I know all of you know that I only talk about neutral things. I even let her browse through my chat logs. She read one person's chat log and guess she got bored. I told her, I don't say anything that could be confused with flirting or anything like that. So its a semi-trust issue and semi-attention issue. She has been a bit poessive lately. Though the last couple of days she's been alot better. She has got both alot better and worse too. Its weird. On one hand, when she's being a good gf, we really click like we used to. Then when she's pissed off, its like I'm her worse enemy. So yeah...... That's life for me atleast. I'll be commenting probaly later today.