Not much to say today. Nothing really signifigant or interesting has happened so far. The only reason I'm writing this is because I feel a need to express myself. Even with my friends, I could never get into how I really feel about things. People are really judgemental and superfical. Usally I got Michelle, but having a girlfriend is different than having friends. Not sure how to explain it. Maybe because I have to be careful of what I say, because when she is mad, she throws stuff in my face. I do that sometimes to her too.... We get along but she is different from me. I need to associate with more people like me, but where the hell do I find people like me offline? People online are too unreliable to keep up.

I'm so tired of having to be fake to people. Though I know logically you have to because some people serve certain purposes. I'm really frustrated right now. Just want to throw stuff and cry and then get a nice warm caring hug. LOL, how pyschotic. Still, got to be strong I guess, otherwise I get thrusted into some really nasty depression. Ok, time to go and be my social alter ego, Santino; the one that is perfectly ok.