Today I talked to happykatz. *aka allyzkatz* NOthing otherwise worth noteing except when it came down to secrets. She asked me bout mines. *I told her, was in the moment thing, besides were close* I usally don't mind saying my secrets cause if you read this diary, you know all about me. *well almost* Only one thing I've left out so far. ONe thing I didn't think mattered. But ya know what, it does. It does for me. It's been burdoning me for the longest. This entry is probaly gonna be way harder than "yes i'm a virgin" was for me. I'm kinda not sure if I should even write about it now that I'm in the limelight. But since everyones watching *well not everyone* I might as well get it out sooner than later. That way I can start with clean slate. I might not even write about it. It's hard for me. Hard to face. Embarassing. Now, If I don't write it here, I'll let my "friends" know. SO if your my friend *you know who you are* you will know by end of today. As for putting it on here. I'm still debating. I'm gonna sleep on it. If I put it, you may think it's dumb or you may totally understand. WEll I hate to leave people in the dark, but I wanted to write this so if I write this, I might feel obligated to put it. If I don't write this seemingly pointless entry, I never "spill the beans". Well let me talk to God. I'll see if it's worth mentioning. Also, might just break news to friends first,see how they handle it. See if it is even worth saying.

Ya know something, its not even revealing it to you people the problem. Its revealing to myself, in text. That's the hard part. To read it. Then see reaction to it. SOme potentialy negative. That's it, I'm sorry if you feel mad at me for not saying it here right now. Hope you understand.