I think I'm starting to realize that I'm pretty pathetic. Like I subscribed some more notifies, just to have more emails from people I kinda know. I also sit there and get overly joyed when some actually does send me a non-DD thing. Usally that's all I get. Well, a couple of newsletters I don't really read. Another pathetic thing I do is when I sit here, come online, see no one, then wait. Wait for what, well, for someone I know to chat too. And I'm so stupid too, I get hurt when they're not there to chat to me, Especially after I get the line," I'm always here for ya" I think I take that too serious. I be coming online waiting for them, then get a feeling of let down when they don't. My brain says, TINO, they got a life, they don't have time to follow you, and when they do have time, they will come on. My emotions, they're like, I want someone now!!! Though I got my lil bro and sis. THey're cool, though its not the same. Also, I don't like burdoning them. I guess cause I have no real friends I could turn to. So I turn to online people. I KNOW, STUPID!!! I'm trying to distance myself though. Soon I won't care if they come online or off.

I hope that ain't ranting, it is. Oh well, might make this private, who knows.