Ok, after MUCH thought, I have decided to get the money for my mom to stay out of jail. *even though I believe I will not get money back* NOt only was family tugging at my heart, so was my conscience. Still, the deciding factor was GOD. I prayed. WHat I found was that if Jesus was making decison, he'd spend the money on keeping her free. Tomorrow I will wake early and get money out.

Not something I look forward on but its something I've decided to do. I hope this is worth it. THis will put me back from even the thought of moving for a while. I'm not sure when I will have free money to save again. It was fun while I did have it. Made me feel like there was hope yet. I still will have about $1000 in bank, however, I will have to pay for next semester and the books that go with that. Also, I will have to make payments on braces I will be getting. SO that money is as good as spent. Atleast it was kinda free money. *that is what unemployment checks are, right?*

Moving on. Today was ok other than that. I went to a fellowship thingy today. *i forgot I had told them I'd go* Was ok. Pizza and soda. THen some advice on friendships and relationships. THen everyone socialized. *except me ofcourse, I just sat there in chair, I'm not good at small talk* Though I did have this guy Spencer come and show me a few verses. Went home, ate a lil chicken. Watched some tv, came on computer.

Ok, just thought I should note that I did take pills. *felt I should* Not sure if it changed me today, I felt down even before taking them. *was stressing on loaning money* *feel like its more like giving* Gets me kinda ticked just thinking I'm paying for something I DIDN"T DO! *shrug* Well says in bible something about having riches in heaven, not here on Earth. Wow, I hope I have alot. No, No I don't, that's just greedy thinking that. Anyways, I'm off.