It started going downhill while Michelle got a tummy ache while eating. Then they overcharge us and it sets off a negative mood. However, I shake it off saying no big deal. Then, I go to nearby Lil Ceasers to check up with my application and Michelle's. I see the manager, *the guy I always talk to* and he puts his hands up in the air when he sees me. I'm thinking huh. I think ask him if they hired anyone yet and he told me he left me a message on Monday. I had got the interview and I was gonna be in. So then he procedded to tell me that he might hire another 3 people in two weeks. He said to keep coming by. So then I'm angry and leave. Just then, the bus passes by, there goes 30 minutes.
So we're walking and I"m thinking, hey i been checking the messages, what gives. I'm so ticked off and Michelle gets angry afterward. I guess it hadn't set in. So we're ticked and finally get home.
At home I ask who checks the messages. My mom says she does. So then before saying anything, I second check the message center. NO message. It was deleted. I then start to argue with my mom. SHe says she musta been extra drunk because it was Memorial Day. That doesn't make it excusable for her to delete it without telling me. She says it like oh well. She says find another job. While that sounds easy, she doesn't know how hard my college schedule is to work around. She then leaves and starts to tell my lil sister how mean I am! She is also saying she's gonna disconnect the phone. *now that she has a cell phone* She is literally doing this to spite me. So much for motherly love.
The only good news is someone else left a messge for me from asian resources. They apprantly got my info from the college. They want me for an internship. Not sure about the details because they only left a phone number and a name. Too late to call them right now.
So right now, I'm really ticked off. SO is Michelle. The only thing that has actually made me feel a lil better is kaliko's comment. She always gets me to rethink what I think I know. I'm going to respond with a whole entry later, when I'm not as angry. That's all for right now.
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Unfortunately, I cannot help you with your quest for God as that is not my thing. Best thing I can suggest is do what you feel it right.
It's hard to be positive and re-connect with yourself, and I really appreciated your comment because it's a reminder that everyone has it tough, not just me.
I wish you the greatest luck in finding your path.
~*M*~
Christine
Tell me something, when you have the ability to help someone who needs it, and you truly want to help, not for any selfish reason like getting something back .... when you can help and you want to, but they refuse, how does that make you feel? Right. That's how God feels when you refuse Him.
We were made for love. Why shy away from it?
As for the rest, you have to learn to trust and believe that God is God. He can and will do all things that need to be done. When the time of judgement comes, everyone will be judged fairly, and the bible says the truth shall be revealed in such a way that no one will question God's righteousness. He is God, He can do that. We are not God, so we cannot judge, least of all judge Him.
Whatever you decide, keep searching. Even after you decide, keep searching. Not all the answers have been revealed yet. God has a plan, and it's still in progress.
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